4th Week Updates ;

HEYYY ;
it had been a great week, really probably the best week so far. i looked forward to friday so much HAHA (check previous post for reference)

Mon ; went to SR Invest in the morning and saw so so many familiar faces omg. so so happy to be reunited with them omg. the investiture was alright but after the event, it was just another reunion with all the chung cheng people and all my close friends. was so thankful that i rep for it and it was so worth to miss sch and visit them too. it has been a great morning with amazing people. miss them all so so much and most importantly, miss the less stress-free days so much omg sigh...

Tues ; nothing much happened for started counting on to fri alre (d-3) completed anothere 5km though HAHAHA. including mon (10km), 35/50km done and it just felt so great teehee ;
Wed ; sch ended early at 12pm due to A levels listening and went for lunch with zhonghng. lunch was domino and omg we ate the banana kaya and can i say it is a very successful creation from them? the banana kaya was so good and it is seriously super matchy with the crust and cheese omg. i am definitely going back for more omg its really love love omg \^0^/ and yes council meeting in the afternoon too (d-2) completed 5km too yay
Thurs ; nothing much too in general except the fact that i completed 10km omg and yes, GUYS I COMPLETED 50KM OMG CAN YOU BELIEVE IT A LAZY PIG ME I COMPLETED OMG I AM SO SO HAPPY OMG !!!!!! and that 10km done was super meaning and great cause first 5km was done with cheryl, had a talk with her and we shared some of our personal things and it was a great session i am feeling more comfortable with her now yay and the other 5km was done with the telepathic buddy. telepathic buddy looked so stress and shag from all his admin work omg and yes we needed to catch up so hey we spent 5km walking and talking together and omg it was the first time ever, i don't feel tired at all from all the walking omg. okay maybe cause i was strolling the whole time but hey i completed it alre woohoo YAY YAY YAY (d-1)
Fri ; the best day of my life, the day that i restart my year, my 365 days teehee woohoo (previous post) it still seemed so unreal omg but really it is really great like really great (tbh, great is also an understatement for it. no words can be used to describe the best day of my entire year woohoo)

and yes i concluded my wonderful and super amazing fantastic excellent awesome joyous week (omg, i will miss this week so much sigh) and now i need to get back to reality again. it has been all a dream, a dream so sweet, so unreal, so fascinating. thanks for giving me that moment of happiness that i know and remember it with my entire life, i promise you all that.
'if i can continue this dream, i will never wake up'

'today was a fairytale'

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17th Birthday ; 240715

Finally. I am 17th. One year more to being legal.; woohoo
So many many things happened and i was reminded so many many times i was blessed and loved.
Super thankful to each and everyone that send me happy birthday wishes, gave my presents or even just existing in my life. love y'all so so much omg, all of you are so so adorable omg.

Mama bought a cake the night before, my fav cheesecake from my fav cake store omg sigh (1st cake)

my fav comm : welfare

Morning, welfare comm bought a strawberry heart-shaped cake, super sweet and super delicious. That mini celebration was totally unexpected and yes i was so so surprised omg, 1st birthday song was sang in the morning in council room omg, these people are so cute omg. What was more surprising was the cake was bought by Jeevan omg. And i genuinely thought he secretly hates me but i am so glad that it is not the way anymore woohoo (2nd cake) love love welfare omg, welfare pride woohoo

1st birthday cake from welfare comm ;

limweiran came to sch and passed me this super heavy box, one long box and one milk oops. she said i cannot open the presents and must open in front of her later, and i was lugging that box the whole day from 7plus am to i swear it was 10plus pm when i reached home. They were so busy but omg the content was so worth it after that woohoo ;
after assembly, my clique, the cutest group of people, came to pass me one big bag and a balloon and omg ,my class started singing a birthday song for me in the field omg. I was so so touched and omg even ms koh wished me happy birthday oh dear and i was so surprised woohoo and it wasn't the end of their celebration for me omg, the last event was the touching one omg sigh how much i love them now ;
during lessons and during breaks, there were so many happy birthday wishes that came from everywhere, including my phone. Even my longest table partner, now in SR, remembered my birthday and he sent a birthday text omg. i am really really blessed omg. every year, without fail, he will send me birthday text and every year, he will ask me if i am still  his longest standing table partner HAHAHA. and yes, every year i will tell him he is my longest table partner teehee. we were table partners for one entire year and the only pair that didn't change at all in the class when each and everyone went through at least one change woohoo. and ms tan also wishing me happy birthday omg so touched and so thankful for that teehee. and also council group, og 24 group, 2hm'12 group omg so so so many people saying happy birthday, making me so so thankful omg

what adorable people omg love yall so much ;

after lessons, finally. my clique people all ran away omg, except for jessa. turn out all ran away to prepare the surprise omg. so each of them took a balloon, and each wrote a word on the balloon, including their messages for me inside the balloon. the message formed together is 'happy birthday jieai we love you' it was so so adorable omg like it was the first time i had this kind of celebration omg so thankful omg ;

and then after then zhonghng told me that he did a solo dedi for me woohoo. and dumb jieai is so dumb that she didn't get the hint until it must be spelled out omg. it was a purple photo super super pretty purple omg but omg i love that photo so much omg, thanks for the hinting love woohoo ;
council people sang one more birthday song for me before meeting (3rd birthday song) and then finally before council meeting, went out purely just to follow the people that went outside to get food and yes, had the biggest surprise of my birthday. CHOY MING HUI CAME ALL THE WAY FROM CJ OMG she came all the way from her sch just to said happy birthday and celebrate my birthday with me omg i am so so surpised shocked 80% unexpected (cause she asked for my timetable and then when i ask why she didn't reply that part of the text lmao)

limin weiran and ming sang birthday song (4th birthday song), cut a small cake (3rd cake) and royal pudidng omg, so cute omg and yes we took so many photos and finally i opened my present from limweiran woohoo. GUYS LIMWEIRAN GAVE ME ONE SET OF CHINESE BOOKS OMG i didn't wanted to buy that set cause including shipping i think it will be 100plus but omg she got the whole set for me was going to cry omg and i was so shocked omg. together with the books, there were 2 pairs of socks, 1 bottle of air freshener but the main thing is it is purple and it is lavender woohoo yay yay yay

so thankful for you and your amazing jieai birthday project omg 

5 years and still counting :)

the biggest surprise of my birthday omg

finally we sent ming off and i went to limweiran home cause that burden girl said her bag is heavy and she wanna bathe lmao. and omg because my balloon burst (and to think i was feeling insecure abt the balloon thinking will it break and good job it burst in my own arms omg) and to myself happy, i bought another balloon for myself woohoo and finally dinner omg. guys, we reached the restaurant at 915 can u believe it? we were eating until the person came to tell us that we are closing alre omg lmao first time receiving this kind of treatment lmao but it was the perfect end to my 24/7 wooohoo

oh and mama sang me a birthday song (5th birthday song) finally went home and omg i'm so done with myself. i had ten thousand messages to reply, snap chats to look at, Instagram to update before the day ends, and photos to look and filter through, solo dedi to do and i needed to update here too. woohoo. and omg i am finally done with all my birthday components omg
once again, i am so so so thankful to all the people that wished me happy birthday and thank you for all the heartfelt gifts and wishes and most importantly all the love. i am really really glad to be born now and every year i am just glad and grateful omg woohoo. really really just glad for everyone omg and how i really love 24/7 it is just the most perfect, most amazing day for me omg. love love all of you so so much

truly blessed 17th \^O^/
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Selamat Hari Raya Pussa ;

Third week into school, comparatively a shorter week.
Excited about tmr, stepping into the zoo after one year plus omg <3 p="">HAHAHA.
Summary of this week, let's go ;
Monday was a relatively alright day, nothing special or extraordinary that stick out so it was good. Just that i was totally knocked out the moment i settled down at home. Zero work done because zero energy left. HAHA.
But this week i commence my 50km run ; update of this week run : 20km completed !! Honestly it was a wonderful and very commendable job done of my part, especially the fact that i completed solely 10km today like omg wow jieai wow HAHAHA.
Tuesday was good too and that i ended sch like around 7plus and reached home at 8plus and i literally lost my frequency and was super blur, like blur blur blur. When mama talked to me, it took me 10seconds to react, 10seconds to process her words, 10seconds to finally realise what she was talking and then i can finally respond to her. Wow, that lost of sensitivity.
Wednesday, HAHAHA. It was Claudia birthday. Wow, let me tell you an amazing story. I bought a balloon and the moment i stepped out of the mall, BOOMZZZ. I was so shocked i just stood there for 5seconds and literally lost myself. I didn't know what to do at all plus i was alone which just adds on to the super embarrassing moment omg. An auntie was super sweet, she asked me to go back and ask for one-to-one exchange. But the stupid person tell me it is the weather problem, not technical error so it cannot be exchanged smh omg. This made me i have to buy another one. After that, i was hugging onto the balloon and seriously ran away from all the sun and going under sheltered area. Oh, and don't forget noob jieai took a wrong bus and was so afraid that i was late for meeting (there was a council meeting that day too) so i cabbed back to sch and seriously left with zero dollar omg. It was so so so bad and seriously it was so depressing like omg, was so scared that the balloon will crash on me again omg i will seriously cry if the second balloon died on me again omg. Thankfully, it got home safely. Safe and Sound. And council meeting; finally rectified my serious problem as an announcer and omg i still got so much to work on and take note and improve. ): still very scared and worried and super super nervous when there is an announcement. sigh, yes much to work on...
Finally, today, Thursday. Broke the record, lessons ended at 5 and i was totally out of myself alre like wow. Track walking and completed 10km in total from yesterday and today. YES MAN HAHAHAHA.
Okay, the week ended with fri being hari raya pussa aka NO SCHOOL HAHAHA.
Koalas, pandas, red pandas, I AM COMING YAY YAY YAY
(will update the amazing story of koala love tmr omg)
<3 p="">Goodnight!
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Instagram Concerns

I don't get many but people do ask me how do i achieve so many posts on my Instagram page. I just said that I love taking and posting photos. The process of wanting to capture something nice around me, giving it some simple touch up and then sharing it to the people around me. Yes, i feel satisfied from doing it. People liking those photos, leaving both good and bad, retarded and funny comments. I read them all and laugh them all away too. Those lovely comments, they reminded me of the beautiful things in life. Those retarded and funny comments, they reminded me of the simple things in life. Those mean and harsh comments, they reminded me of the insignificant things in life. I never replied them all. I never. (if you have been observant enough, i never reply comments) Not because i am feeling arrogant or being mean or whatsoever, but i don't like these whole clogged of convo under my photos and i just feel that whatever thoughts i have, i prefer keeping them to myself. After all, it is still a social page. A social page that everyone and anyone have access to it. I don't private it too. I never see the need to do it. I am not hiding anything from anyone, neither do i have any secrets there. Like it is a social page, why do i bother try hiding anything. People can't have access to it but what about the computer IT-savvy people? When people want to access your info, all they required is just few types on the keyboard, no problem at all. Yeah, that is why i don't hide too.
Someone once said this 'If you wanna see what the individual fear the most to lose, take a look at what they capture'
The first time i saw this, i was utterly shocked and in disbelief. These words just reflected the true me. I am not denying. Everything i posted, yes i am afraid to lose them all. I am afraid of losing all my loved ones, all my closed ones, all my happy and sweet moments, all my good food. Yes, i am afraid to lose them all. They are a reminders of my life, what i have done and that i am able to look back and remember all these important things in my life. Well, as one, they may seemed insignificant. But, when they are all together, they taught me about gratitude. I am thankful. I am thankful. I am thankful. Without those things on my page, i will easily forget about all of them and continue to lead my ungrateful life. I don't want them anymore. I wanna be constantly and always be thankful to each and every single thing in my life. Yes, complaining, ranting and bitching, i will die without them (will never deny it either) but at the end of the day, they remind me of all the good things in life. For eg, hell is hell. Yet, from hell i found a great comfort from my closed friends, especially the one i rant to most of the time regarding hell lmao. See, something good will come along the way so yes. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
My Instagram is my life sharing page, my moments remembering page. I am proud of it. I am loving it. And i am proud to be the main owner of @limjieai
Teehee
'Live your life everyday by being grateful. Then, you will not live a day of unhappiness.'
:)
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Second week into school

HEYYYYY
Another hectic week ended. Fortunately, it was a less stressed, less tiring week. Thankful for this week, especially the terrible week before. As usual, school is full of drama and unexpected event but yes, i am always glad that i pulled through them all. They serve as a reminder to me that at least i am still leading my life properly, purposefully. Am i still breathing? Yes, i am. :)
Monday was probably the most nerve-wrecking day. Was busy running around between morning duty and oath taking omg. Not forgetting there is announcement oh dear. The mind was so jumbled up with all sorts of feelings and thoughts; anxiety, worries, paranoid and etc. Still suffering from serious problems of preparing the heart and mind for announcement making... << need to work on it a lot a lot.... Thankfully, it was all alright but standby on Thursday was relatively disappointing. Announcement was alright but standing posture oh dear -__- (take note girl)
Lessons this week was alright too but i would like to add that this was probably one of my slackest week ever since orientation? I ended exceptionally early for three days straight yehet. HAHAHA. Spend a lot of time just enjoying life and basically, just doing things i loved aka videos watching and eating and lying on the bed. It was really the best afternoon ever before all sorts of weird stuffs like extra lessons, star, preparation work for school events kicked in. Yes, council is still very slack but i am starting to foresee all the work coming in, all the stress and burden that is going to be thrown at us.
Thursday, how i love you. EoM was a relatively great job, he said that it was comparatively, a better work, compared to PI. Honestly, no one understands how much this statement actually means to me, especially by looking at how much i screwed up my PI. I needed to do everything and all i can to salvage that mistake i made. I couldn't afford a second error. That statement acted like a confidence boost for me. Yes, i am not going to fail anymore, both in WR and OP. I am going to make sure that i am able to so so so so so happy on results day next year. Yes, i will.
Oh, and it was Raudhah birthday too, 9/7. Seriously, the balloon was so adorable alright and i am proud of it omg HAHAHAHA. And recently, i felt that we are more comfortable (or maybe just me) with one another and i am spending more time laughing with them. Despite the failed surprise event smh, I am glad everything worked out and that she loved it all. YES I LOVE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS SO MUCH OMG
And oh dear, how much i love the new physical geo teacher. I am so thankful she left and they brought in these two new teachers??? HAHAHAHA. I am actually starting to see the light in rocks, in weathering, in basically all the originally strange geographical terms?? Is that a sign that i can actually do physcial geo and all i am lacking now is just the stupid motivation to be a good girl and read my notes? Time to prove your worth, my dear. You are capable of doing more that you can.
Side note : Councilors need to run 50km each for the school SG50 run and basically it is just like a bolt of lightning that strike so hard at me oh dear omg. I was so thankful that it was an optional event until the teachers made all of us to do it??? (i haven't been moving my ass properly ever since napfa 2014??? good luck to me and running)
Lastly, telepathic trio is established around these two days but i cannot remb clearly which day was it already omg. HAHAHA. < currently still trying to understand how this friendship work out omg HAHAHAHA. Nevertheless, i couldn't be more than thankful woohoo
I guess time is the essence to all things in life. Never worry whatever that is going to or not going to happen. Eventually, it will all worked out. Just have faith and always believe that today is not the worst, because the worst day is already over and we are just one more step closer to our favourite happiness. xoxo
Ending this with my current favorite song with this special line;
'It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Everything will be alright. I believe in you'
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June Holidays Updates

HEY YO :)
(i sound like a weird retarded kid. one emo there, another hyper here lmao)

First week : pre-u seminar. It wasn't about the things we learned or received. It was more about chilled and relaxed time i had here. The people made the preparation, event and exhibition process very smoothly. Spend one week of worth time relaxing and forgetting all bullshit in life and just having the time to myself and just bond with the people i loved back in sec school. For the week, i couldn't be more than thankful. p/s : i even suffered from post pre-u sem syndrome.
Second week : received a free lunch + bonding session with the telepathy buddy. bitching, ranting, spazzing and just talking about life. Yes, it was just pure dumbness and happiness :) // sea games with weiran + day out with her. 'True couple goes grocery shopping together' HAHAHA. Indeed, this love is so real. HAHAHA // econs lesson 101, as usual, someone was being a bitch and no extra comments are required. // day out with aunty too + shopping YAYAYAY // This week, i played my way through and i never felt so happy before ^~^
Third week : finally decide to get my shit together and start life proper HAHAHA. got some work + went out thrice too. // unbelievable shopping trip with the limin and hannah (me bought clothes too) // pw interview too // HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK : fat cat ice cream bar w/ weiran + 4hm class bbq. LOVE LOVE LOVE the ice cream omg (i need a revisit omg) and class bbq, was so thankful to see some of the familiar faces again and as usual, talking crap was the best thing ever. HAHAHA. // ending off the week with a malaysia trip. Never going to deny that malaysia has the magical power to let me relaxed, chilled and just empty with all nonsense in life. Yes, malaysia is one of my healing place.
Last week : realise that homework is going at a legit slow slow slow place so decide to catalyses that shit by sacrificing my sleep and did it. (actually i do work or not also sleep so late so i don't think it was much of a sacrifice? HAHAHA) // ending off my holiday with two day out. // poop outing finally after what seemed like an eternity HAHAHA. I am still missing the cheese chicken omg T^T // movie 'twenty' with ming. Honestly, couldn't be more than thankful for the movie and ming. Had a truly great laugh bc the movie is pure dumbshit HAHAHAHA and ming was being a usual adorable ball of happiness.
Dramas, variety shows, movies, useless videos, of course how can i ever missed out of them, isn't it?
HAHAHA.
'everything has to come to an end, no matter how good or how bad'
I'm glad i could call this one of the most meaningful and fruitful holiday. (:
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tough tough tough

It had been so terrible that the pre-council camp feeling was back. I was just feeling down and under the weather. Everything went wrong and that i was receiving so much negative bullshit that even my emotions and mood went negative. sigh, it was bad. Nearly wanted to cry last night but i couldn't. I hate that the most. Actually, i hate the fact that i am so weak and that i cannot fight the stupid and annoying emotions. I am constantly being drag along and affected by my own retarded thoughts and then being super emo over it again. :(
Monday morning was bad cause i screwed up my job as an announcer + hell being super asshole. First day of school officially screwed up.
Tuesday was alright.
Wednesday had a good scolding from vp but technically wasn't in the wrong just mood a bit affected. Went home with zhonghng weiran and limin. Missed them all so much, esp zhonghng :( it was one month since i met him and that it was like a great laughing and healing session. Indeed, they are one of the best few people around. :')
Thursday was probably the worst.. The whole day was plain dreadful plus receiving scoldings so it just added on to the excellent bad mood.
Friday was alright but oh well the week has been terrible but i am super thankful of the ending. it was really really one of the most comforting ending ever. Comfort food + comfortable friend = feel super super comforted at heart now. Ice cream will always be the love i need in life. Now that i think of it, i am thankful for the human that created ice cream. This person saved my life. Or else, i don't know how i can go home, feeling less troubled and annoyed. I guess i can take in more bullshit now.
Okay, end of rant. I wanna get rid of the stupid burdensome feeling in me now. I don't wanna think about it anymore.
One thing i learned this week : the most heartwarming thing in life is knowing that there're people always willing to give you their time. All you have to do is just voice out and ask. I am glad that I have you :) much love xoxo
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Returning :)

Hi :) It has been a while. Managing blog was supposed to be a part of my life. Ever since life took over me, this was neglected. Sec 3 and 4 weren't easy but i am glad i survived them all. :) The journey wasn't easy but i am glad i had the best bunch of people with me. And i am thankful because they remind me of the goodness in life.
This year, 2015. Starting my academic life with a new identity, in a new environment, surrounded with new people. Yes, adapting was tough, especially when i am super bad at adapting. However, i can safely say that so far everything is alright and the journey is somewhat smooth for me. To be honest, i didn't expect myself to return here since i left here for 2-3 years. Returning here, just simply hope that i can now find a place where i can just rant and spazz about my life without worrying what the others have to say. Wanted to use jayaiiie_ but idk still felt unsafe and i guess i still feel insecure about some issues and stuffs i wanna say so yeah, hence here. I don't know what will i be writing here but i guess i will be just plain blunt and honest with my thoughts and opinions about things around me and don't give a shit to anyone or anything anymore.
Yeah, today marks the opening of this blog. Changed the name, bio, and ever URL. I want to start afresh. I want to start anew. I want to begin a brand new page.
Okay, stop with all bullshit and let me talk about my first week of school since June Holidays'15
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