WEEK 1:
First week without a phone. Honestly, i thought i was going to die. It
Mon; PW Results Day. Honestly, want my phone because i thought it was a very important day so i wanted the phone but nope, she refused to give it to me wth. And omg the entire day was so horrible seriously i cannot. And i purposely went home late also tbh HAHAHA but oh well, the thing is i kind of wanna study in school also but i was quite happy cause i finally bought the shoelaces that i wanted to make for blue and purple and then he came with me yay. AND I GOT AN A FOR PROJECT WORK OMG YESSSSSSSSSS
And, it was also TP119 and A02 that we got As!!!!!!!! There were so much screaming by A02 super funny hahaha, super cute at the same time. Like individuals that just collected at the front were screaming, and then when the entire results slip was released to the class, it became a screaming session and omg, everyone was so happy because everyone was crying and screaming together and then like we were all hugging together as well omg woohoo :') TP119 IS SO GREAT OMG
Hardwork really paid off and we went through so much together as a group, all the pain and laughter we had seriously. It was certainly and no doubt a super tough journey, but thankful that my team was still really together and we all know the importance and work towards the goal together so yes, i am still really thankful my teammates were them and no one else :)))
Oh well, reached home super late but then oh well got scolded duh but aiya mutual bad feelings oops. And actually it is okay la lmao, i was just so unhappy because my phone is gone oh well.
But then. when i tried making the tennis ball keychain, the ball is too heavy so it is hard to put them together :( so i could only make a keychain oh well, but okay la it is quite nice to me too yay, because the colours surprising super matching and the contrast created is really great yay. And actually i made a black&white one too, but wow actually he didn't like black but omg, he still took it :') but i think he took it because i made it hahah.
Tues; Meet Blue&Purple, actually i would call it the second representative of Blue & Purple, because i made the keychain and then i hang it on both our bags, and omg tbh now that i look at it, this week is the third week already lmao. SHIT i just realised the keychains would be how long i don't have my phone omg gg HAHAHA
So yeah, and fuck my life seriously, because followup session with lena koh fuck my life and fuck her omg whenever i think about that issue, all i can think of is fuck and more fuck and just more fuck and plain fuck and nothing else omg seriously. WHAT THE FUCK SHE WANTS OMG
like omg, i love how she knew she is the third party but then she still wanna ask what happened afterwards and then she still wanna help me solve my family problems??? And i loved how she asked me how am i now that is my phone is gone omg :-))))))) and then she goes on and on about me being unfilial and then how rude af i am. okay, fine not going to deny that of myself but can we stop there already seriously omg. Oh, and she even asked me am i mixing with the bad influence wow and i am like did you just insult my social circle thanks man :) And she continued on about how i can be better and i am just went okay and non-stop nodding because i really want to just end this freaking shitty and annoying af and useless convo with her, because the more i hear the more unhappy it made me wow
Super unhappy and wtf i couldn't take it and i just broke up after i left wth seriously omg
And i am even more angry about myself, because why am i so affected by AN OUTSIDER'S WORDS WTHHHHH urgh who is she seriously omg get out omg
And the entire day was just plain awful omg. First round of breaking down
Oh and on the same day, i told joel and second time of breaking down and told jeevan afterwards. I need to stop breaking down. Because the entire weekend was all about breaking down and/or on the verge of crying super unhappy and so affected by it wth.
Day two of unhappiness
Wed; i think it was another awful day but tbh can't really remb much what happened on the day already but oh well, how much better can it gets right? :-))))
Thurs; longest day ever but it was also the one of the most tiring day for the week i think. It was just plain bad seriously omg i cannot. And i looked so off that wow jeevan caught my super off face oh well. I don't even know anymore, like idek how ti hide everything else because i am just affected and i can't believe i feel like crying even more because my life is seriously FUCKING pathetic right not because i can't even blog anymore. I even going to lose my very last place to run away from all the unhappiness in my life temporarily and i am going to be so done with education and wth should i just take a year from education wth, so what i started uni late because i think i am really so done with this year already wth wth
Lessons ended at 6, and thursdays are my worst days because it is my longest day and then i am like so drained, and things are bad la wth omg. Met joel and round 3 of breaking down i think the enitre day was just feel with so much unhappiness and me feeling real shit and all sigh. I honestly didn't know how i got through the day but what i guessed allowed me to go on was it was elearning the next day so yeah
And met up with joel and weiran too, and talked to joel and also told weiran the entire situation oh well i concluded she was a real true bitch when she asked her to break away from her close friends???? And so she made friends with benefits so she basically abandoned those that are of no use to her. Wow no wonder she has no friends and she is all alone :-))))
One word to describe me: distorted
Fri; elearning day. Super inconvenient because everyone was using the phone to transmit the messages around and then like, i just lost out on everything??? Actually, i found my phone but oh well i failed to take it so stupid me again lorh. And then elearning so i got the com entire day, and skype chat with joel in the morning, skye with chuken for 3 hours (no regrets, no fucking regrets okay) and skype chat with jeevan.
And wow, jeevan gave me one super surprising and sweet encouragement so yeah :)
elearning was so stupid and i rather attend school because wth i ended up with more work to be done????? and the entire day was real productive because not only i completed my work, i even caught up with my friends so yeah, it was real good :)))
Sat-Sun; nothing to say much because i am just apparently stuck with more work and no phone oh well.
Oh, and about nalan, told him about it too hahahah oh well, so we are back on ig direct lmao and he was sad and i guess it is even harder for us to chat anymore oops sorry alan!!!
It was just a week filled with sadness + annoyance + disgust + and generally me being real affected that's all.
WEEK 2:
Forgotten to write down about this week lmao, so i am going to be just based on memory seriously lmao hahaha
legit can't remb much already but i was just so caught up with physical geo CA and omg, i didn't study for chi gg and i just went to take the paper like that. Sigh, i just felt that i still won't do well for my physical geo lorh wth even though i studied some parts of it. And chi wow. I don't even wanna talked about it tbh lmao. It was so pathetic wth. But oh well, the day before phy geo i slept at 3 so no complains and i was totally knocked out when i got home and didn't study at all for chi. But omg, the teacher said i made improvement this time so i was really like this >>> O_O
And yeah, the only thing that probably made me better was probably the go home gang lunch i called for, because it was plain fun and enjoyable and laughing my heart out and just talk about life and all hahaha. Changi Airport lunch and bingsu afterwards yay man :))
And skype session with chuken omg hahaha love skype session with him the most seriously omg hahaha it is always super comforting and rewarding so yeap!!!! Got caught but whatever seriously. Hate the fact even the com is being taken away every now and then like wow thanks man :-)))
And okay, mon was rather great because of the little note and efforts from jeevan hahaha and also thurs evening with joel wow, i loved spending time with him so much and okay, now i remb what is the highlight of the week already >>> jeevan
The entire week concern was about him and my feelings so yeah and the internal war that i had to fight thanks man woohoo
For more info, please read below thanks friends
And he replied my email and then he told me he got something to tell me and the way he said it made me felt quite worried and scared about what he was going to say but yeah we cleared it already so all's good :)
Long labour weekend as well, so prepared for econs but i probably still screwed up sigh, why am i so bad seriously like urgh omg...Oh and rather productive, probably the phone does caused a lot of trouble, but without it, it also cause trouble so ..........
Practiced maths too, and feeling much better about it too so yay
WEEK 3 (this week):
Getting used without a phone but blogging is still one major issue that we have to work on fml seriously. And actually this weekend i was able to focus and really i didn't think about him but.....
Tues; saw him again and i went SHIT, and then i said SHIT again and i am just so done with myself la wth. Screwed up for econs again and probably will do worse than those that had A div and panorama urgh, what a loser seriously. All damn studying were wasted as well, great job jieai :-)
Wed; super sleepy in class and i fell asleep during assembly lmao, so embarrassing man. Was supposed to jeevan to clear the receipt work but poor weiran had so much to rant and then so yeah heard her rant and told her some stuff about my clique and class too. Conflicting af when i see these two groups of people seriously omg thanks mates :-) it was a super good ranting and letting out session with weiran and angie because i felt so much better saying so many things and also the affirmations i received sigh wow thanks guys, you people were great :)
And because jeevan didn't bring his com, i decided to bring it home to do and we ended up talking about what he wanted to tell me, so actually it is a concern on his part and he told me that he only told me his worries regarding the issue but his friends didn't know about that but they only know about the surface issue and i was like woah wow hahaha thanks for the trust love you teehee ☺️☺️☺️
And i think i am the only one that he talked about this problem, other than his parents hahaha??
weiran asked me how am i and i am like hahah i don't know because everything is just bad in general so oh well..
Anyway, but i am feeling much better already so yeap :)
Thurs; another long day at school but oh well, things get better towards the end and bonding session with joel was wonderful so yay for that thankful for this great friend seriously. Oh, and further updated about him about my thoughts and also i received some info about him lmao i cannot. And it is so difficult because it is real conflicting from what i am receiving for this end so this is confusing af too???
Fri; panorama 2016 so yes :)
And here is the end of of my crazily long posts and time is going to get tougher from now onwards and blogging is going to be so so tough and i am just going to do whatever i can to blog as and when it is possible already. Yet again, i survived another long post and wow
More tests and exams are coming up and i am just going to brave through this year and seriously be so done with life already. Not even halfway through 2016 and here i am, so fucking done with it already how great :-)
Goodbye and Goodnight
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