OGL Camp; Prometheus

OGL Camp happened from 4-6jan. First week of 2016.
I couldn't sleep at all all these while and i also didn't sleep until 3plus in the morning. And i even woke up even earlier because i couldn't sleep and as usual, was having sleeping issues so yes.
Before the day, brinjals even met up alre to do the final practice for our dance.
It was good meetup and it was so great because many went for the dinner woohoo.
And it was on that day that i start to see some things and potential in martin, my future afm (or more of, confirmed afm becasue brandu sent the email out alre what even)

day1:
met up and gathered early in the school. Took attendance, camp address and all the standard admin procedures. and we played ice breakers, but it wasn't really required because everyone knows each other very well alre lmao. Flag making was next and they decided to have brinjals lmao. They added a crown on top of the brinjal. They were so cute hahahah. Lunch & after that was, finale night and mass dance practice. Mass dance practice was so good because i genuinely love orientation 2016 mass dance because the dance is not easy to learn but it is very nice overall. It is a nice dance but it is definitely not easy to learn.
After that, it was war and wet games. War games were actually just blehh but wet games were super fun because they had all the fun and i could see that brinjals were bonding together as one :) Took many photos together and we almost got our flag taken away fml. chuken asked the flag from me and then jeevan saw and was actually wondering why was he holding onto the flag and then when he passed the flag to afrina, i realised what is going on and then i wanted to snatch the flag back omg. I ALMOST GOT OUR FLAG TAKEN AWAY FML GUYS
After that, i forbid afrina and chuken from the flag and i discriminated the two of them from the flags lmao. So for a good three days, these two didn't even had the chance of going close to the flag lmao hahahah.
Then it was shower and dinner. Omg, super excited about this bc welfare is finally back on track and doing what we are best as doing at. SERVING FOOD WOOHOO
Omg, so proud of welfare comm this entire camp bc we were the food comm and we were always there during meal times yay for us. Serving food was alright but becasue it was the first meal, we did have some problems but thankfully they were minor and we were able to solve them all easily.
Image workshop but tbh wasn't listening to much so sorry to the teachers lmao and i fell asleep when the workshop ended fml.
NCC aka night confidence challenge was next and brinjals were separated into two groups and the group with fariz and azzam were amazing becasue they solved the puzzle with around 20-30mins left on the clock like omg. They were the first group to finish solving everything and in the end, they spent the remaining time talking crap and laughing at one another dumb jokes hahahah. The other group took a longer time but it is okay because brinjals are amazing like that teehee. Then, we were the last group to depart and proceed back to the hall. Then, it was debrief and end of day 1. Councillors had to stay back and we had another round of debrief and i was just dead tired from everything that happened on that day & of course serious lack of sleep. I feel asleep after mama called me and i still remb it was 1230 when i was knocked out omg.

day2: woke up at 630 and we had morning exercise lmao. HAHAHAH
fml, welfare people are so great because we missed out on all the scoldings, punishments and morning exercise during the entire camp lmao. We are such great losers hahahah
We ran away from all because we used all the meal times as the excuses hahahah. day1 dinner too, we ran away from the punishments lmao hahaha.
Then we had accelerace briefing and we set off for accelerace. Accelerace was a super great success because everyone finished the entire course even before 20mins before the original time omg. And it was such a great time bonding withe family. While walking there, it just ended up things that me and martin were at the back alre lmao, and when they turned around they saw the both of us, they started shouting 'martin for afm' so i am just like omg this bunch of people i cannot
btw, friends we did numbering for headcount, and i put isabelle and martin both in charge of the female and male memebrs bc i needed someone to look after the others whenever i wasn't there so yeap. yanling was supposedly the admin ogl but sigh, i asked martin to help him but eventaully, martin was geniuely much more resposinble and realible during the camp because he would do headcounts as and when which it was what i needed from my afm. I need my afm to be seriously much more clear headed than me all the time, and someone that is much more calmer than me most of the time. lmao friends, isabelle was hugging onto the flag the entire camp and she was holding onto like she was holding her life. She was super amazing omg i cannot. I never have to worry where is my flag because most of the time it will always be with her teehee. We were just completing the various games at the different stations and accelerace was probably the most successful part of the camp. Then, we went for lunch at century square. Lunch was so fun because they were just bonding among themselves and super thankful for mabel bc i was so hungry and i haven't been feeding myself properly during camp (i never does that)
Mabel shared a two course meal with me so we had a fish and soup for lunch and it was so good and so filling urgh omg so good. After lunch, we went back to school via public transport and brinjals just took the entire second decker and it was so cool so i decided to take a photo there hahahah.
Came back to school and completed the second part of accelerace.
Open house briefing was next so they were basically taught what to expect and what are they supposed to do during open house and as tour guides.
Left early because welfare comm needed to prepare for dinner hahahah fml. Dinner was buffet once again, but fml. Unlike yesterday, there were slighlty less than half of food left, and we had to threw away half a tub of rice omg wtf. day1 dinner wasn't enough and now day2 dinner left so so much omg. All of us were crying when we had to threw away the food i swear. So much food was wasted and we were crying at all the african kids that we could feed omg fml. fam1 did helped us to clean half and so the comm jsut finished the remaining teehee.
When we were done, we went back to the hall where they were having image workshop aprt 2 but so thankful it was allover lmao. Super thankful for welfare duties because i completely missed out on all the talk and unwanted punishments and physical shit hahaha fml. jeevan asked where were us the whole time and when ruihan told him that we were all cleaning, his entire face color changed omg hahaha fml it was so funny because he was super shocked that his remaining comm, all comprises of only girls finished all the cleaning up hahahah. He felt so bad towards us because he was just there listening to the workshop. I was just like omg we are finally even because when we were serving the food, jeevan kind of insulted me when he said why am i always eating omg fml. And excuse you, i never ever eat properly during camp okay, never. urgh i felt so hurt when he said that to me omg fml. After that, we had our finale night rehearsal. Each family took turn to perform for the finale night and omg every family is so good i cannot but hey, we are not bad too okay. The teachers said that fam 1 and 2 have the best performances omg :')
It was one crazy night and we had so much fun omg i cannot even explain all the excitements that i had during that night. It was one amazing and unbelievable night altogether.
Then, it was debrief, washing up and getting ready for bed.
Talked to mama on the phone and omg mama drived me crazy, when she asked for facetime, and she said that, 'yeah it is good now that i have seen your face' i felt so much in me and the fuzzy feeling omg i cannot even explain them out. mama even wished me goodnight before she went to bed. Council bireifng was after that, and unknowinly i started seeing at the guys side, and had conald on my right, and chuken on my left. The guys couldn't stop teasing me about, don't drop that thum thum thum i swear fml rude kids i cannot hahahah.
Afrina commented that i have been a really good family master and she said that i did a really good job this time omg :') teehee
Super happy about that omg yay
\^O^/
and washed up and we concluded the night, concluded day2

day3: last day of the camp, and we had our very last meal together, and then it was packing up and area cleaning. Run away from morning exercise too lmao hahahah, and then it was reflection and appreciation time. We all gathered in one circle and we wrote some appreciation notes for one another. Then, it was debrief and after photo taking, camp is officially call to an end and everything is now finally over.
Brinjals didn't wanna go home so i called for lunch and lmao, they were so smart when they decided to order pizza over to school and so we all just gathered and have pizza together as lunch as one family teehee. Bunch of cute people omg. we started exchanging snap and ig accounts and finally, everyone is back on social network lmao hahahah.
With this, ogl camp is finally over and everything came to an end.

This 3d2n was an important time and the bonds between all of them escalated so much and i think it was super necessary for them to come together and affirm some stuff together and honestly after the camp, the wa group become more active and they started talking crap and sharing homework up there lmao hahahah. It was so heartening to see all of these and i am genuinely thankful for each and everyone here at the camp.
From that amazing brinjals, to my awesome food comm and finally my very beloved 30th council, that we are all in this together and now we are all one more step even closer to the biggest and maddest event ever, orientation.
Orientation 2016 is going to slay and i believe it will definitely be one of the best moment that each and everyone of us will enjoy and remember.
:)

Vorfeude;

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Farewell Holidays & Aloha School

Two weeks flew by & there were so many things that happened. Didn't start the year right and it kind of worried that this year, 2016 won't be a good year especially i am taking As this year. ): I even checked the 2016, for the zodiac of tiger and they said it will be a rough year this year so i am genuinely worried that things might not look up for me and i might also experienced many unwanted unhappiness and sorrows. I am really worried about that omg ): Please just hope that it is me being paranoid that's all sigh pie....

Okay, updating some news!! These two weeks have been really wonderful becasue it was two weeks filled with many fun, enjoyable, trembling, sad and anguish moments.

4-6jan: ogl camp, super thankful for camp because Prometheus, or we all prefer brinjals HAHAH is now officially one big family and everyone is just so comfortable with one another. I really love the bonds among the family and i am so glad that we don't have any outcast in the family, super thankful for that i swear :') I won't ask for any switch now because to me, brinjals are the best and nothing else beats that :)
^ will have a solo post about camp because it was one amazing camp, and by far the best camp to me since council camp & ltc. YES IT IS HAHAH

7jan: came back from camp & entire body was soreing so so much from the camp & because i haven't been moving my ass for way too long, the shagness and fatigue that followed after the camp was amazing that i thought it will be so hard for me to move oh lord... I even had muscle aches at the weirdest parts like the soles of my feet & my palms?? I couldn't even lift a cup of water up what even... And because of that, i spent the entire day just lazing around and of course, no completion of work HAHAHA

8jan: met up with the one and only amazing jacq hahah and it was such a great day of eating, talking, walking, mini shopping & most importantly, catching up :')
Love the saying that no matter how long a pair of bestfriends are separated, when they come together again, it seemed that they have nothing to stop talking about :)
We didn't wanted to go home and so we ended up watching movie instead lmao hahah, watched the alvin and the chipmunks. It was just a very simple date but it was a date that requires zero efforts on my part because everything just follow so so naturally and there was no awkward silence at all :)

9-10jan: i was just rushing homework and nothing else and finally start to panic because my homework is way too much behind time and i need to get my shit together lmao
Had a simple family time over macs supper on sat but it was a good closure to my holidays teehee

11jan: first day of school but teehee, no lessons becasue the school is super kind to us and they gave us bonding time as a class over breakfast and apples for the teachers, lollipops for the students and it was just some review over school rules and ms koh policies urgh fml. And then, it is the end of the day and what is all left is to prepare for the open house that is upcoming the very next day.
Super thankful for this kind of first day of school because they understand the pain of us unable to return just yet so they gave us a break and slowly recovering hahah.

12jan: open house. another great memory created because it was one day that was filled with so much great excitement and fun-filled moments. I was in-charge of receptions for both shifts so i just had to station myself at the foyer the entire day. My job was just to give out the goodie bags and notice the logisitcs people should there is a short of goodie bags. But in the end, i was the balloon girl the entire day, giving out balloons to all my visitors and it was probably one of my most favourite job teehee. But lmao, second shift i was supposed to be marking attendance and account for the tour guides of the second shift people. So i was supposed to be doing reception, along with the attendance taking. Partner was ruihan for the first shift and chuken for the second shift. Both of us were taking attendance but i will just be assisting him because i am taking double roles, like both giving out balloons and helping me to take attendance. While giving out balloons, i was also directing people to the other side of the foyer so that they can take attendance with chuken. fml, after that day, i can finalyl conclude my enitre life i can't run away from admin, and though i hate to admit, but i have been doing admin ever since i entered council lmao what even. From council camp, to farewell assembly and then for ogl camp too, and now even open house, i am quite a good half admin and half welfare hahahah.
During open house, it was super fun because i was just giving out balloons, watched the performances happening and perform the mass dance when they call for the ogls that's all. The entire day was super easy yet super fun. And yes, friends nalaaaaaaan came for open house too btw.
I was quite doubtful about him coming at first becasue he did asked me when was open house but i wasn't certain and yes, he did come. I didn't realise he was here and it was all just pure coincidence, when i was just turning around the other side, i saw him, standing right there with his group of friends. When i turned, we just met eye contact, and then he just smiled and he mouthed hi to me. I did the same thing back to him la duh (basic courtesy). (fml i thought he was quite cute when he smiled fml fml fml)
Why is he so tall because when he just stand there and he's practically just out-stand everyone omg i cannot.
I hate to admit but he is cute omg, like he is cute when he wear specs, but quite good-looking when he doesn't wear specs urgh this kind of guy i cannot omg
It was super awkward but i told myself to pass him balloons when he is walking past me hahahah. And so i passed him balloons and then tell him, yes you can go now hahah.
He was walking around with his track friends and classmates, nothing much but i guess i was stationed at the foyer so everytime he walked passed the foyer, i will see him??? lmao, what even.
And then, he sat down when there was performances at the foyer, and i couldn't resist myself so i took a photo of his backview (fml jieai you suck i agree wholeheartedly)
Everything went out super smoothly until we were all super tired and shag alre from the entire day so we all sat down at the stairs at the foyer area. And everything just happened so well because he decide to just stand at the back of all of us,  and when performances are starting, HE JUST DECIDE TO PLOT HIMSELF RIGHT AT THE BACK OF ME WTH HE PURPOSELY ONE OMG WTH
For a good 15mins, i didn't dare to move and i thought i was going to die omg what even. Chuken was beside me but he left to finish some work and i also placed the balloon one side, but when i was back, my seat was kind of gone and chuken's seat was also taken, which basically means i have to move back and sit even closer to nalaaaaaaan...... He started asking me some stuff regarding orientation and open house, and duh i have to reply and respond to me yes i am a very respectful girl HAHAHAH
Then he asked me, if there was a mass dance later and if all ogls are suppose to dance, or more of if i am dancing (he is a piece of shit friends), i tried to say that i am a councillor, but he goes on that a councillor is also an ogl and a councillor should set a good example, fml this dude seriously. But, tbh when we were having that convo, i was kind of reminded what happened during farewell assembly, when i was standing on stage, goofing around with the council people, fml friends he saw me dancing what even, embarrassing much.
And he said he will be back 15mins later, guys he need to stop. Guys, 15mins has never been so agonising i swear and it was a 15mins that i thought my heart is going to die what even. But omg, he is really cute like urgh, AND HE HAS BABY FACE OMG
3 things a guy shouldn't have on his face:
1. cute smile
2. baby face
3. dimples
When nalaaaaaaan fulfill 2/3, i decide to give up on life.
And i am not bias okay, i asked a few people alre. Everyone agree that he is good looking and yes, he can make it HAHAH
And then, i was hanging around here and there, i mean open house is ending so you don't really have to do much anymore, and so we just stood at the side. When nalaaaaaaan came to that area because his friends i were there, i decide to move away lmao. Awkward much okay, i cannot stand myself to be near his premises what even.
Btw, i told claudia about him too & i told claudia where was he so that she can also take a look at him and yes, he can make it omg i am so happy because everyone agrees his face can make it fml.
I think i will be a potato from now onwards omg.
Moving on, when mass dance is about to start, i went to the other side of the foyer and fml, why did we even made eye contact when both of us were standing at different ends of the foyer, does it even make sense urgh omg, he was grinning super big at me and i was just like, he needs to stop i cannot. But i wanted to dance and have fun, but no way am i going to allow him to watch me dance okay. farewell assembly was just i was kept in the dark so i cannot blame anyone alright. And so i grab denise and hidayah and went all the way to the back of the foyer and purposely get many many tall guys to block me out okay. It was super fun dancing around and i was so glad i was blocked and he decide to sit down hahahah. Mass dance over and finally, open house is over omg. He left with his friends but idk why, he made sure he said bye to me.
Friends, i am going to die because of him omg. Like when prom just ended and that period was quite weird because i kept on here and there, thought of him and the stuff he said. But during aussie and after aussie, i swear to god i completely forgotten about everything regarding him, like i swear i even forgotten how he looked like what even, until i decdie to take a look at his ig and the photo we took together. Tbh, i still feel so bad that i never follow back all these while when he followed me on ig for a good 7 months omg i genuinely felt bad about this aprt though. Like i even followed xylon after a short while, like 1-2 months later omg. But i didn't even know or follow back until so long, i feel quit bad towards him though. But okay, friends you cannot blame me too because i never knew about him until prom la wth wth
And when i was back, i was so caught up with all my schedules & homework & ogl camp, so i didn't really have time to think of him so yes.
(fml, idk what is worse, i dreamt about him one day and it was probably one of the craziest dream ever because i dreamed abt him posting to me one whole book of his growing years & at the back there was a letter, and i was like still in a state of shock & cringing much, and so i just went to the last line of the letter and 'i will propose to you' was written at the bottom, i almost threw the book what even)
Okay, chuken asked me, will i ever consider him more than friends, and if i decide to say stuff like super best friend or mega super good best friend, he will slap me HAHAHA
And also, he send me a happy new year text & still thank me for giving him a good 2015 when i accepted his friend request lmao hahah. Okay, maybe we are friends?? But though, it was more of he is trying to get to know his eyecandy more, and i am trying to get to know a stranger more that's all. He is more of an acquaintance to me though ): but i think it is moving towards eyecandy for me soon idk omg ): because i think he is getting cuter omg ): cry die me friends.
And he said if i ever need any help in terms of life or academics, i can ask him but sigh, i think bc of a zhengwei, i genuinely hate to have this kind of convo alre though ): idk sigh, yes he is one year older than me, but idk let's just don't go that way alright. I rather we talk shit and we just update each other about each other's life and i prefer things to be that way. And hence, i won't ask him anything because i genuinely hate advice convo....sigh, i think i still have some bad memories about what happened previously bah.. sorry nalaaaaaaan ):
Like if you really wanna talk, i rather you be super awkward and just start with anything and ask me about the sky lmao. I rather answer your stupid question regarding the sky than academics stuff i swear.
Okay, maybe i shouldn't even have so much hopes because eventually, the both of us might not even move to that stage you know, the future is still unknown but at least for now, first impression is good hahah. I am a super bad girl and i won't dare to do anything neither will i take the first step though, so yes it is basically if he doesn't talk to me, there will be no further progress or updates from now onwards though....
btw, i dreamed about him again... someone hold me right now... I can't remb clearly anymore but it was just another crazy dream with him that's all.
Okay, friends, prior to yesterday, i wasn't sure if i really would allow us to progress to that stage or we would remain as super great senior and junior, but one thing for sure, he gave me a good first impression and i am not scared off (:
But after that day, i think i might wanna start building my friend-zoned wall, like i just start building first and don't allow any chance bah. Friends, he posted a photo with this lg. LG = life group, which also means it is like a group of christians gathered together and preached about god and christ. Please always remb that i am not against any religion nor do i have any issues against christians but over and over again, i was constantly reminded about what happened back at my dad's extended family where how much religion can caused so much trouble and conflict to the family. And i once asked before, what should you do when your other half is not a christian, what would you do & the reply i got was, talk to him/her and tell him/her about christ and convince him to accept christ to his life. It was from that day onwards, that i know that if my other half is a christian or basically something else other than buddhist, we will not get together anymore. I rather die a lonely death and i am not kidding friends. Free thinker is still alright for me , but especially from the other side like catholics or christains, i am really sorry, we are nothing more than friends.
And basically when nalaaaaaaan decide to be part of christ, that is basically a no start from us two alre. I am ready to maintain just a super simple senior and junior friendship from now onwards.
So yeap, i am heartless and wth, but i really cannot stand when we get to the topic of religion, we will have conflicting views and it will just hurt the friendship so yes. But if he is not or otherwise, then maybe i can change my views lmao hahah.
Religion is such a sensitive issue that no way am i going to ruin it just like that, no just no. And i have just way too many examples around me so yes i don't want the same thing to happen to me. I can't afford. I can have friends that they are all of various religions but when it comes to find a partner, i would genuinely prefer someone of the same.

Okay, i need to move on because i have been saying too much about nalaaaaaaan and that is way too long of a post about him please friends. And yes, things haven't been too good ever since the year start and i also accidentally offended a stranger, and which happened to be weiran's aunt too ): it was so rude of me but sigh she was pissed at me, and now she felt that people are so weird here at tpjc, which makes me feel so bad towards everything and her and everyone ):
And urgh, rosemund tan. GOD DAMN ROSEMUND TAN. SOMEONE STOP HER RIGHT NOW. idk why, everytime i talked about her, it is all about misunderstandings and conflicting views like whta even urgh. How can she say such things to me like wth, i expected so much from her, or did she just downgrade herself so much now ever since where she is right now? How can she say such things about me, and you should it better than anyone what kind of a person am i wtf?? How can she say that i call myself the poster girl & and how can she that i call myself popular omg how could you how could you??? Who the hell goes around telling people that 'eh i am popular in school' wth who in the right mind does that, and no way will i ever call myself popular like are you kidding me, and i never acknowledge the point that i am popular until people start recognizing me in school that is freaking all!! Oh and about the poster girl, for goodness sake, i was on the school banner btw friends. Like they printed my face twice, and poster girl was what the teachers are calling me okay wth. Teachers saw me on the banner and when they talked about me to other people, they called me the poster girl, and hence i was referred as the poster girl, and how could you!!!!! do you know how rude are you when you said that to me !!! And you asked me to snap out of it wth!!! I didn't even enter the stupid arrogance pool to start with wth!!! Like i am a super simple girl and definitely someone you won't ever notice in school, so when everything was suddenly upon me, of course i will be taken aback and be like, omg at each and everything & when all these happened, of course i wanna share with all my close friends all my excitement but now, i am being view this way wth urgh
But weiran said it's all coming together with a tinge of arrogance now so i am going to work on that part now, i am going to tone down a bit and stop being so excited and fascinated over everything or else people are going to misunderstand my original intentions again. weiran said that people won't understand me so they were judged me but only my close friends know what kind of a person am i so yes, i am going to work on that. but i am really angry over what kind of thoughts that my close friends are harbouring over me, this is seriously super hurting urgh!!!!!

And yes, because of all these super shit i have and i am receive, i am starting to hold back everything now sigh. This is super saddening on my part because i was always excited to update people about my life but now i can't do it anymore urgh.......
Like i can't tell them anymore because sometimes their comments are rather harsh and hurtful and super brainless, especially rosemund tan wtf. Like you don't even realise what you're saying at times rude af i cannot. (and soemtimes i am quite rude and harsh, so i am still trying to stop being so mean)
& weiran though sigh ): like i hurt her feelings recently so i think for a period of time, i won't say anything much bah. And also towards jacq, she is too chilled but she is someone that i know i can always depend on for a listening ear :) and also ming, i keep them around knowing that they will never ever judge me :')
and zhonghng is just sometimes a catcus, sometimes a middle finger, nothing else more than that.
and for now, it will be chuken now. I am so so sad that i am left with one last option omg like this is so sad wth.

so many things happened in just one day, and nalaaaaaaan actually had the hopes of moving up but i guess i am bringing him down now, becasue i rather lose a possibility of having a relationship than losing another friend. And i genuinely hate it when a relationship turn sour, it is just so so bad.
And the idk why, i feel that i am starting to lose some of my friends too and i hate that fact too, or maybe we are seeing each other lesser and lesser ): idk though, i don't wanna lose some people, like i am really afraid of losing them wth omg.
& i better get my line up again wth i haven't been talking to ming ever since i changed phone omg. I need to keep our convo continuing omg this is way too serious of an issue alre i cannot.
^ too many human drama alre, way too many...

13-15jan: school & lessons officially commence and everything was just back to how it should be, attending lessons, not eating during breaks, still rushing holiday homework (what a loser), and settling more council and orientation and family work here and there.
Orientation was just in two weeks and i didn't even realise it until jeevan texted me about the logs required and i was like omg what even. Then, i also needed to get my family together for the dance because we changed one part for the girls and we really needed to work on our coordination. I was handling them and the meeting days, debating the changing of songs & also thinking of the bandanas omg. This is way too narcissistic, but lmao, i got all three settled before the week concluded hahaha
The girls learned our new part, and we practiced a few rounds together from the start to the end, and yes i bought the bandanas too omg!!!!
And we had another practice session on thurs after school & it was just another amazing bonding session with the family so i am so thankful that everyone accepted 3 parties didn't turn up so i almost had a full attendance family teehee. Time spent with brinjals is always the best time to look upon and look back :') super thankful for the bunch because they gave me the courage and determination to pull through everything and telling myself that, yes it is all worth it; very very worth it :)
I was so happy omg but though it was just first week, 3 days of lessons but i felt so overwhelmed by everything and i was alre totally worn out and shagged over the things i have to settle and complete.
urgh, and orientation is in two weeks & the academics are seriously getting more and more demanding omg.....
I need to get myself up and real quick and prepare for whatever that is further coming my way omg...

The weekends are finally here and i was looking forward to the weekends so so much, like i needed the break so much. And i was so tired that i slept my entire morning away & three more hours on the car ride back to malaysia....
There are work due on mon and of course i haven't start on any as usual???
Genuinely hoping that things will start to bright up a little for me and just give me that energy and strength i need to pull through. Desperately needing some moral support and maybe just a bit of slowing down of time right now.
(& also, pushing nalaaaaaaan out of my head is one of my priorities now)

This week has been way too long and way too painful for me. Praying that things will be slightly better and tbvh, i can't wait for orientation really. I can't wait to relieve all that happiness and excitement that i have during ogl camp
:)

WAtCH OUt PEoPLE ; SOMetHiNG BiG iS CoMiNG YoUR WaY

'the feeling of thrilling & excitement, i live for them'


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Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016

AND..

Today, in less than 3 hours, we are going to bid farewell to 2015 and embrace 2016.

This year, everything happened way too quickly, way way too quickly. 

Many many things happened since the start of the year and many many feelings and emotions i had went through this entire year too. 

This year, is probably one of my life-changing year. I have grown a lot a lot since the start of 2015 and and learnt many many things as well, both about people and about life :)

It has been one amazing and one extraordinary year. Honestly, all the various expereiences and ten thousands mixed feelings i have, i won't ask for any otherwise. Everything has been just great, perfectly great for me and i just feel that, it is way too hard for me to just give them all up. No way, no way am i exchanging or trading all these extraordinarys i have with anything else. Each and everyone of them have been too too precious to me. They are all the different milestones and witnesses to my amazing 2015 and who i am today, who i am right now. 

I thank you all from the bottom of my heart of all these times i had spent and all the efforts that was put into all these. 

January; it was another great month of post o-levels and i was still enjoying myself so so much, continuing from nov and dec'14. Results came back and i was devasted for a week before i got through it and told myself to make the best out of the remainig holidays and enjoy whatever that is remaining. I binge watch dramas even more, knowing that i will stop drama-ing when school starts. And when i was finally posted to tpjc at the end of the month, it was expected but when it was really right there in my face, i refused to accept the fact and went to submit my appeal to srjc. 

February; Orientation at tpjc officially commence, and despite all the fun and enjoyment i had during orientation, i was still waiting for the call from srjc, being really really patient and continue to be hopeful even though the chances are getting lower and lower by each day. Depsite that, orienation was really fun with my really really awesome og mates and i am truly thankful for them because of the wonderful memories they gave me when i was feeling super super down. They provided me all the joyful times that i could look back and be thankful over and over again. And i would say, they kick start my tpjc journey really really well :)

And how could i forget on the second day of orientation, i found my vitamin & i vow to come school everyday to see my vitamin and take my medicine everyday teehee :3

And finally, when orientation is over, official lessons commence and we were all distributed into our classes based on our subject combi. Me, jessa and pingxin were in the same class and we were just super excited because thank god there were more than one of us from the same og in the same class :)

First time meeting lena koh, i just felt that everything is wrong about her and she is just way too unbelieveilable unexplainable i would say?? Idk why, everything that i did that day happened to be wrong and it just felt so omg???

Still remb i was putting my arms around jessa and she called me over and say that there shouldn't be any physical contact and she said it looks really weird and inappropriate to the visitors when coming to our school?? I was just beyond words and went like what even omg. 

And then we went to have lessons in the various locations but still went together as one og because we were just close like that teehee :)

CCA selection also commence and i picked council but i had so many advices and talkings to me saying that council has many many work and that it will be very hard to balance myself and etc. And oh ya, i applied for pre-u sem too, all because that rose asked us to do it. 

But thank god, i braced through all of that and followed my heart and decide to try for council instead. Ming got the guess at first try effortlessly and i still remb that at that point, zhengwei was a rather supportive senior as he talked to me about my results and he advised me here and there regarding my academics and cca and people. Can't believe how things turned out now...

March; interview for both council and pre-u sem happened to be on the same day and i didn't know about it because i didn't have wifi/data at that point of time so i was unable to check and thus, i didn't know anything about it and i still remb that the teachers called and asked me if i was still coming for the interview lmao hahahah. Went through both and thankfully both were alright and i would say that during my pre-u sem interview, i was better :) And then it was council campaign. Both group and individual campaign. We were the first group to went up for stage campaign & powerpuffgirls squad will be one of the best memories i have this year omg :') We went through a lot together and had so much fun as well as a group of 5. Aloyius left and it was replaced with my very own, telepathic buddy now, Loh Chu Ken. And this marked, the amazing and most unexpected friendship i had this year teehee. And all the same old thing over about our campaign period and oh ya, pre-u sem then kicked start with our very first workshop of the year. 

Oh, and also met up with Ming finally at her school's festival teehee and project ohana for our class but there is still this famous saying that ohana is supposed to make the class more bonded and get to know one another better but actually, no after ohana, the clique got even more distinct and now the class is officially split into two sides oh well. 

April; finally the campaign period is over and yes, i got into council super thankful for that friends :') qistina didn't get in and our group 4 was only left with 4 members, and we have two that became exco. Council camp came along and we went through another mad rush of everything i did before during guides camp but i couldn't believe it, it was less strenuous and i would say the games were not bad too teehee :3 

And then the exco were announced and chuken become the head of sb :) Initially, the pr head was weeshyan but he was eventually kicked out of council and hence, dora replaced him. 

Oh, and it was the submission month for pw first stage, pi. I went through a lot a lot because of that minor 5% and he even questioned was i able to cope both or not which left me really devastated over everything and i just had to do everything i can but still, the final work was still really really bad sigh. 

May; investiture came along together with our v50 project for pre-u sem. Prior to that, we met up for an interview with our targeted client and then we somewhat got our project idea out. We submitted our proposal as well and i would say it was one hell crazy month because it was also the SA month. They were so many things happening in that month and everyday passed by super quickly because everyone just trying to catch up with studies and then before we knew it, it ended and investiture was in our face and finally, we concluded the month with track & field day and hot concert, and yes, this officially commence the start of june holidays as well. 

Btw, kaihon was still my vitamin at that point of time and i was still chasing behind me like the crazy fan hahahah

And yes, track and field day, first time nalaaaaaaan noticed me in school.

June; school holidays but who said it was all fun and nothing else. Everything happened way too quickly okay. I didn't attend academic week on the first week of june because of pre-u sem and i was so so thankful i signed up for that because it was one of the best lifetime experiences i could ever had plus a super relaxing and super chilled holiday away from all the stupid people i ever need in life. It was just so fun and i was super free too btw hahahah. Came back met up with some friends, attended extra lessons, more pw along the way and complete some work as well. I would say, this holiday was packed with many many events but it was one super fruitful one as well :)

July; semester 2 commenced and finally my favouite month hahahah. Yes, it is my birthday month woohoo. Nothing much out of the extraordinary and tbh, we were all rather panicky because of the upcoming ltc that was happening at the end of the month. Met up with poop too on hari raya because i requested as my birthday wish. Oh ya, sg50km run lmao that threw the entire council in shock and everyone was just protesting why do we have to run hahahahah and every week i had to walk 5/10km just to clear them all omg.... And 24/7, another best day of my life because all the wonderful and super sweet celebrations i had teehee, once again thank you all for the wishes i recevied. Then, urgh hell day came along give me one whole week of non-stop cringing and i went on a super super bad week, and was dreading ltc so so much and i even wanted to submit mc and just don't go for camp anymore omg. And i was praying so hard but what even, after all that luck, we were placed in the same group and i was forced to interact with me for 3 days urgh omg. But it was a blessing in disguise becasue or else i will still be running away omg but oh well, my favourite month ended this way smh...

August; preparation for CA and it was also sg50 national day and we had a five day holidays but what rubbish because i spent all on studying omg sigh.... And then the remaining month of just spent on studying and preparing for CA. And amongst all that, it was also eom submission and i received my very first compllimnt for the very first time for pw, it thought i was going to break down at that point oh god. 

September; teachers' day celebration and we went through so much together as one council and finally we performed as one and showcase that we are able to grow as one :') This also commence the start of sept holidays and yes, i coped myself in the house for 5 days straight not leaving house a bit and i thought i was going to die and didn't even realised it until sun, one more day before school what even friends. And oh ya, i also kind of fell out with zhengwei and i went through a super emotional period as well. And the remaining days, it was all spent on studying and more studying just to hoping that i am able to do well for promos and get promoted to the second year. And when exams ended, the month concluded as well. 

And yes, sept was the quickest month i ever had in the entire 2015. 

October; and when now promos has ended, it is time for full drill pw. And because we have been constantly working on our pw, the month passed by rather alright for us and i spent much much time slacking around and lmao, first two weeks were two crazy weeks and because finally, i am taking charge for farewell assembly teehee :3 it was one crazy experience and yes i will never trade this experience for anything else :') teehee 

And then finally, we are able to finalise our wr and eventually our op day came along but the day before op, we were threw into one huge drama and i genuinely thought we would be so screwed for pw omg. 

November; and with the closure of op and finally the last submission of i&r, the last document for pw and then the entire proposal for all our individual components, we officially bid farewell to the end of pw teehee :3 

And when pw is over, it is now time to receive our promos results. Results day came along and thankfully, i passed every single subject and YES I WAS PROMOTED TO THE SECOND YEAR YAYYY

And when results are over, we receive our results slip and commenced our academics for the next two weeks. Lessons were stupid and super boring and omg and when it was all finally over, the month has ended and finally, WE ARE ABLE TO SAY HELLO TO OUR HOLIDAYS YAYYYYYYY

And we started our ogl briefing and had our very first fm together and concluded the month with restrung concert :)

December; and finally here is the last month of 2015 :)

Holidays kicked start with prom, where i finally concluded my obsession with kaihon with a photo with him and then i finally found nalaaaaaaan heheheheh. Then was econs lesson and then it was all about getting ready for the most amazing thing and the last highlight of 2015. #AiloveAustralia finally took place after nine months of real agonising painful wait. Everything about aussie was beyond perfections and i can't even describe everything with words because i love each and every single part about aussie and yes, aussie was the best trip that i could ever asked for and i was just more than thankful for this more than amazing holiday :')

Continuation from the holiday, it was another crazy ride of events from wedding meals, to outings and really just more wonderful memories. 

:')

Thankful for 2015, thankful for everything that happened. Thank you all so so much

Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016

Can't wait for another amazing year to begin :')

'2015 has been super amazing, let's make 2016 more than amazing'

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