Good Morning.
Literally because a good morning because it is in the wee hours. But, it has been a while. Completing forgotten about here last week because so worried about promos and keep on fearing that there is still some things that either untouched or information not filtered in yet.
First week was the Sep holidays, which i completely forgotten to blog and then when i finally realized that, it was already Sunday night, the day before school restarts and a new term starts. So i told myself that i will blog the wed, the last day of official lessons. But, i was too caught up with work and then i completely forgotten about it as well. So yeah, before i know it, today is the day already. Tbh, i didn't wanna blog, it was so impromptu because i was talking to a telepathic friend so blogging just came to me. So here i am now, updating about my life two weeks ago.
Sep holidays, i went back during the weekends and was suppose to study but apparently, i didn't follow so the plan backfire on me and uh huh, didn't study at all so came back and had to rush through everything. Mon was back because i woke up late and mum made me do work plus i had to meet weiran in the evening to cycle. We went for a mini cycling at the park connector behind my house and also went to get stuff'd. It was the first time i tried that but it was oh dear, love at first bite like it was so on point the kebab was so good and the filling, the wrap was just thumbs up thumbs up yay for stuff'd woohoo. And then tues, i went back to school for lessons and then met up with tampkangied HAHA. Our very first official meetup ever since the formation of it. And finally, i told dora about it. I told dora about burden chan. Bc the both of us each has a burdenchan, she thought i was referring to her burdenchan, but it turn out that it wasn't her burdenchan, but my burdenchan instead haha. Actually, until now i still can't really believe that yes i told dora, the second person i met in tpjc about it because it was honestly quite a personal matter on my part and other than all my clsoe friends, which all happened to be all sec school friends, no one knew about it, other than chuken. My clique don't know too, like i feel sorry towards them bc they have honestly been sharing quite a bit about themselves, and then they simply told the group like their ec, their love stories but idk why, somehow it require a lot of efforts on my part to even tell them who is my ec. Like, i only them my ec only after two months and it was because they all had one obviously and then we had like our own sharing session so yeah. I told them. But, that also mark the end of my stories regarding such personal relationships. I guess i am not ready that's all. This is me, if we are close, you don't even have to make an effort to get yourself update about my life, bc i will be the one broadcasting to you each and every single moment i have. In fact, you might even get so tired from listening bc i really speak too much HAHA. But when i am not close, even the simplest thing, i might not say too well. I don't have a neutral side, but only 2 extreme sides. So yeah, i told her. We spent the entire time talking about the issue and chuken was exceptionally happy bc now i gave him a partner in crime to disturb me with it. smh i just dug my own grave please. But, idk why i felt really comfortable with that girl now and i just told her one of my most personal secret. oh well, but i am glad i told her and yes i welcomed her into jayaiiie_ too. And when i accept new following, it means i am willing to show you my weak side and that yes, i know i can fully 100% trust you on my shit already. People following my private better be thankful and honored omg. Moving on, wed i finally really got my shit together and then i started my revision rigorously. But, urgh being a s low learner and a rather distracted one too, my progress was really slow, like too slow for promos but honestly, i can safely tell you that whatever i learnt during the holidays are retained very strongly on my brain now and that for a short period of time, it maybe still there. whoops whoops, clap for long term memory friends. Wed, thurs, fri, sat and sun, i was homed for a good whole 5 days and that i really did not leave the house at all, like AT ALL. Not even going down for a walk or to get food or meet anyone. Nope, i didn't leave the house at all and i was wondering why was i feeling so stuffed and cooked up on sat afternoon, and then it finally dawned on me that i was homed since wed omg, I was genuinely shocked at myself too omg, I really stayed home all this while omg. You have no idea how thankful i was on sun when mum wanted to get some bread and went to the bakery at orchard. I immediately tag along like 'urgh, i need to get out of the house this moment now omg' When i went out, the air suddenly became super super fresh and new and everything looked so different to me even though it was the same route over and over again. haha, i was so retarded please. Also, for this entire holiday, i slept in the day (morning), do some work called by mum (afternoon), dinner and bathe and finally, settle down at around 10-11, and finally commence my studying time until the morning and then go to bed and the cycle repeats. And there was this one night, mum was being such a sweetheart and she ordered pizza for me at 10pm bc she said that i was going to stay up so it is okay, haha (extra love for this bonus yay man)
And this officially marks to closure of my Sept holidays. Honestly, never been so diligently studying before but still, the work ain't proportionate to my hours at home so oh well, still not very productive just yet.
New term started, and 3 days of school left. Did duty for the last time for this term on wed and genuinely thought it would be the last time for the year, but nope, mrs goh said that morning assembly resume after promos and immediately, jeevan and i just turned and looked at each other, with the same expression omg, scarily on point. The both of us were just like 'huh what, wait what did she just say omg' and stupid burdenchan and jeevan made eye contact and burdenchan was laughing at jeevan omg. you don't laugh idiot, mr mak loves your pair than our pair bc you have combined and we only have j1s HAHAHA.
But oh well the 3 days passed by really really fast and it was really soon, study break came and i went for consultations and did some revisions in school. Geo consultation is by far the no 1 most productive consultation bc we spent a good 5-6 hours with him and he was just drilling us with all the knowledge over and over again and basically, just a reinforcement of all the things he taught and i couldn't be more than thankful for it bc after the consultation, my brain was literally fried and i cannot process anymore other information, I went home feeling really satisfied btw teehee.
And fri, maths consult was just plain dumb (me) bc everything is in the calculator and all that i have to do it to transfer all the information correctly and properly that's all. And then we spent 3/4 of our time talking about the other things but i was thankful bc ms tan is being such a sweetheart and she told us many many little information that are the loopholes and tactics of a levels and teachers shhhh and she constantly assure us everything will be fine and all we have to do is to make sure we eat well, sleep well, calculator in good condition and just do your very best. Sigh, one of the sweetest teachers around omg, not to mention all damn hint please hahaha. i went home early bc mum called me but i forsee myself completely not studying at all, which was more than true that day, i didn't do much work that day and only a bit sigh. Same for my weekends, it wasn't that productive still and i went out to find weiran on sun, the day before gp paper to have our last study date together. It was alright but oh well, i am still not very productive and helpful just yet towards my own studies sigh...
AND FINALLY, THE MOMENT WE ALL HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR
P R O M O S
GP paper commence on monday, and essay was rather one of the exact same question that denise and i discussed during consult lat week. the both of us couldn't be more than happy so we just wrote that question. haha, i almost dropped the paper when i saw the questions i swear. but paper 2 wasn't that nice bc aq was so hard omg urgh i rushed through at the end and fml, i din't know summary has a higher weightage this time round omg urgh then i shouldn't have spend so much time on aq omg annoying jieai is dumb omg but i went home, slept and did more econs that night.
Chi paper 1 + half of paper 2 on tuesday, essay was rather sweet and i wrote about my japan trip, the purest form of snow, the sweetest memory and the culture at japan. compre was rather alright too bc the breakdown of marks were really nice and i concluded that they are really trying very hard to push us all to go up omg. Like it was a combine of few marks together instead of just 1 solid mark given to the questions. Overall, the paper was rather good and i just hope that everything work out for me oh well sigh. Bonus: i couldn't sleep on the first night so i ended up sleeping for only 2 hours and then i went to take my chi paper just like that.
Geo (physical and human) + econs on wednesday, probably the worst and the most terrible combi ever like omg ever i am so done with cambridge, so down with tpjc management urgh. brain was more than fired by the end of the day and i swear, though i conquered 2 of my h2s, but i can say that i am more than defeated by both papers, especially econs. it is really I. AM. FUCKED. like geo, i totally missed out on transportational processes which cause me 8 marks, human geo was so utterly badly done omg, like wtf. the second question was a domino question, so yes i got my part a wrote so obviously, whatever that is below is just utter rubbish and bullshit omg. that question is 12 marks btw. and then my essays answers doesn't really match what the others wrote so all in all, geo was just bad bad and more bad. And then came econs, case study was alright, provided my answers were alright too, ceteris paribus please. but essays were another story of utter bullshit, like i wrote a lot a lot but bc it was more of idk anything anymore so i am just whacking everything and anything, and now i just hope that i can get like 26/50 i think it will honestly be more than enough for all my rubbish that i wrote oh well. basically, i fucked up econs too woohoo.
everytime, there is a double papers, it is either i screwed up one of them, or i will screw up both, i guess it is the latter this time. i am honestly worried bc i genuinely feel that i may not be able to make it and that it is really really just super badly done sigh
idk idk anymore plus i had some really really bad lashings last night so it added to the pressure and then i couldn't even break down bc i told myself that there ain't enough time to do it urgh.
I was so tired and that i just slept and chuken called me and talked to me, and then yes i broke down once more. urgh why am i crying more now i am in jc wtf this is not fair and this is not me please, i am stronger and tougher than this please omg wtf
But i got everything out and cried, i felt much better but it cannot wash away the fact that i screwed up real big time my 2 h2s subjects so urgh, cannot stop feeling that i might be ogm wtf
But yeah, once again, i cannot let this dwell too long bc i still have 2 more papers to go and yes, i need to salvage whatever i can now. sigh, please don't fail me anymore, esp maths I really desperately need the A for maths so as to ensure my 10 rank points omg.. and chi omg my chi, i got a U for CA and i better do something about it now omg sigh....
Okay this is the end of my tiring two weeks and especially exhausting 3 days..... the remaining few days left, i am just going to work and pull through them all and hopefully, i will feel better when i walked out of the exam hall next week sigh.....
Okay, the sun is rising soon but i am going to sleep more now...
Goodnight and good morning.
jiayou
//
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Saturday, September 5, 2015
'stop loving people at the expense of yourself'
So many many human dramas that happened omg, and so so many incidents took place too. I honestly lost track of how many but this week i really got a lot a lot to share..
MON : Firstly, continue from last week, last thurs, i was so affected by the entire incident and he utterly just destroyed my mood the entire day. After whatever i blogged, i received his reply at 5plus in the morning on sun. I was shocked and initally i didn't wanna open it, because i really didn't have the confident to face it. I wasn't ready, if you want to put it that way, i didn't want to face him yet, but i happened to be talking to chuken about it (i called him at around 3/4plus and we ended up on Skype until 6plus. Guys, i watch the sunrise because i didn't go back to bed) and then chuken made me open it and then yeah, he wanted to read it for me. I opened it and when i saw the length, (i am so useless here omg) i actually wanted to take back whatever i said i wanted to do, like i didn't mind taking everything back and then return to before. It was just a long text and i haven't even read through, and i was all ready to forego everything once again. But, when i read through, i honestly have zero ideas what he was saying and then i am just lost in his text and that speaks in legit english that requires much thoughts and explanations. And most importantly, he didn't answer my question and then it just brought me all the way down again. It was so awful because i was so affected by his actions, his words. They can be the same thing that gave me hopes, bringing up to the beautiful mountains scenes, but then later, it was by the same pair of hand that sent me all the way down again to the rock bottom and crushing all my hopes again. I was so lost and i did not know how to reply and i was just blur and chuken did me the favour by replying him for me. I even gave up and went to watch videos lmao. There were so many awful, weird and fundamentally unexplained feelings in me. I did not know how and what to react, and i just want to like shut everything away and then run away from all of them. I am only 17, with really limited life experiences. And apparently, not enough to teach me or direct me the way to go. And after that reply that we sent him, i did not hear from him for the entire day and then he only decided to reply him on mon 4plus late in the afternoon. For once, i just felt so terrible and disgusted and the first ever thought that came to my mind was, 'where is chuken? i need him now' it wasn't of any thoughts, but it was just 'no i don't want to talk to you anymore and then i am just beyond speechless already'. He spoiled my mood for pe lesson and rehearsal, i was so quiet and so down and i didn't interact much too. At that moment, i really wanted to just walk out of the school and go home straight, There were so many things on my mind but i couldn't really focus on them all because i couldn't bring myself up. I even somewhat just vented on my fellow group members which i felt bad now because they didn't know what happened and similarly, they didn't do anything wrong either. But, at that point of time, i couldn't stop myself either. I felt so mean now sigh. Sorry friends, you guys don't deserve any of that, i apologized for my immature actions that day. And when finally it was all over, i felt so drained, both mentally and physically. It was just at that moment, i didn't want to do anything else but to just sit down and stare blankly into space. It was one of those moments that i just want to shut everything away and be left all alone and maybe, get some sleep too and just cry all my heart out. It was so terrible. So so terrible. I felt so awful and depressed over it but i couldn't do anything about it too. Now that i think back, i really wanted to hug that day jieai so much now, she was going through so much all by herself and then there is that one dude that is just being really selfish with his words and actions. Even Muhila realised how bad jieai looked that day and she pulled her out to talk about it. I can't stop cursing and swearing because i cannot really processed what was on my mind and i just felt that this is all way too hard for me. Even Melissa came, everyone was saying that i should ignore him and whatnot, but idk why, ignoring was one thing but the most important thing i needed to do, i need to tell myself to get rid of him completely out of my mind because i couldn't do anything else. Honestly, even Nicholas was a better person omg. He saw how bad i looked because i can't hide anymore, and he even asked me 'are you okay' Honestly, i really didn't expect that. I was genuinely shocked and touched, like even he is such a better dude now. And i think he also moved on already yay. I went home, with the heaviest and most ridiculous heart and body and soul. I teared a bit on the way home but i couldn't show it all out because there is still people at home that i can't say anything about it. I was holding onto myself so so much, i even spoke super soft and really gentle because i cannot let anyone, especially the mum to sense anything different. I didn't know how i got through the night but there was this moment that i felt slightly light-hearted with all the comfort and distractions from my friends. But that night, the very same night, Rose decided to be an asshole and add on to the already distorted me. She rather believe and just take whatever she felt and thought, instead of hearing me out, hearing my explanations. she shut me away just like that and then she wanted to shove everything under the carpet. I was like, you are in the wrong and you decide how this convo end? No bitch, you come out and explain yourself omg. I was so pissed off that night that i really just lost all my cool and almost lashed it all out at her. Weiran was also raging at her because of some of her spiteful and harsh comments that turned out to be a joke (from Rose' POV). But unfortunately, you picked the wrong timing when, everything you said, to the smallest detail, jieai took note that day. I was so annoyed with her and i ended up talking to weiran all about it. We were just ranting and raging altogether and then finally, zhengwei issue came into the convo. I sent her the entire long text about the entire point and then her response just made felt so comforted all at once and she spoke the real truth and she broke the wall that i built and held onto since last week. 'stop loving people at the expense of yourself' and at that moment, instantly, whatever i held onto, came crashing all down at me. I broke down. I broke down and cried and cried. And then i realized, i was just being too harsh to myself, i didn't even allow myself to feel how i wanted to feel. 'who is he and why am i so affected by it' 'you need to learn to kick him out of your life now' 'the journey is going to be tough' 'but i believe that you can do it'
And then, i can't stop crying. It was just how much i was containing myself and i even refused to let them out. Even when everything happened, i continued to ill-treat myself so so much. I was so wrong. So so wrong. After that night, weiran woke me up. She was right. I need to learn to let go. I need to learn to ignore. Or else, it will be me, and only me that is hurt and affected. I ignored him the rest of the week, but he couldn't stop texting me which actually pissed me off even more, but i grey ticked all. I don't want to talk to you anymore, and i need to stop being affected by him. And now, I felt so much better. Though the notis is still there, but i know that i am feeling much much better now.
And now, everything is all out and every single detail is being written here, this will officially close this burdensome issue and that, i am going to move on from here and learn to take care of myself more now.
YES FINALLY MOVING ON OH YAYYYYYYY
TUES : Jacq came crashing to tpj to pass me my birthday present, HAHA. It was also near her house but it was so good to see her again and thankful for her existence and presence in my sec school days. Can;t wait for meetup after exams omg
And then stupid Rose finally realised her mistakes and then she was in the wrong the entire time and we finally cleared our misunderstandings.
I hate misunderstandings, and i hate it with all my life. No matter how much hatred or dislike i have against you, i will calm myself down and come back to you and we just need to get it solved and settled. (friends, take note okay)
WED : final rehearsal before the main performance. We really really improved so so much and i am proud to be in this team. We were so good and we just worked things out in less than 2 weeks, we faced a lot of trouble but we worked it all out. It wasn't smooth-sailing considering my group changed our beat three times but yes, it was all worth it. And this is the time, and i am just thankful i joined this big family yay (:
THURS : D-DAY Performance was smooth, backstage work was excellent and on point and i didn'y screw anything up, please give me a round of applause woohoo. And i went back to my temple. Going back was just one of the most correct decision i made. Not only i met all my old friends and teachers, i reunited with the old jieai and i couldn't be more than thankful. I was so embarrassing and being a legit hobo, a pig, a nuisance, a rowdy kid, a wild dog and idk, basically jieai. But, i was so comfortable, so relaxed and homed (: I went into the staffroom, roam around the room, steal food, grab leftovers, sat on the floor and started talking screaming really really loudly. Oh, i was jumping around too. HAHAHA. And when i told the teachers that i had an image in tpj, every single teacher that once taught me either started laughing or just gave the 'are you kidding me' stare omg HAHAH. It was so funny but then i didn't bother and just felt like it is okay guys, i improved too. HAHAH
And then, i went for lunch too with poop too. I spent most of my time laughing and talking crap but i felt so so happy and yeah, i cannot really decide how i feel but it was just peace at heart. :)
FRI : econs lesson + mini study session at airport
And i conclude this weekend that is full of many many many ups and downs. I went from rock bottom to cloud nine, a hell ride. I couldn't really remember how i got through all, but i am just so glad and thankful it is all over.
Promos are coming and this is the start of my sept holidays, Going to make full use of it and make sure the time spent is both productive and worthwhile.
Countdown : 16 more days
'With the will and determination, come the strength and power to conquer anything.' Yes, i can do this.
//
MON : Firstly, continue from last week, last thurs, i was so affected by the entire incident and he utterly just destroyed my mood the entire day. After whatever i blogged, i received his reply at 5plus in the morning on sun. I was shocked and initally i didn't wanna open it, because i really didn't have the confident to face it. I wasn't ready, if you want to put it that way, i didn't want to face him yet, but i happened to be talking to chuken about it (i called him at around 3/4plus and we ended up on Skype until 6plus. Guys, i watch the sunrise because i didn't go back to bed) and then chuken made me open it and then yeah, he wanted to read it for me. I opened it and when i saw the length, (i am so useless here omg) i actually wanted to take back whatever i said i wanted to do, like i didn't mind taking everything back and then return to before. It was just a long text and i haven't even read through, and i was all ready to forego everything once again. But, when i read through, i honestly have zero ideas what he was saying and then i am just lost in his text and that speaks in legit english that requires much thoughts and explanations. And most importantly, he didn't answer my question and then it just brought me all the way down again. It was so awful because i was so affected by his actions, his words. They can be the same thing that gave me hopes, bringing up to the beautiful mountains scenes, but then later, it was by the same pair of hand that sent me all the way down again to the rock bottom and crushing all my hopes again. I was so lost and i did not know how to reply and i was just blur and chuken did me the favour by replying him for me. I even gave up and went to watch videos lmao. There were so many awful, weird and fundamentally unexplained feelings in me. I did not know how and what to react, and i just want to like shut everything away and then run away from all of them. I am only 17, with really limited life experiences. And apparently, not enough to teach me or direct me the way to go. And after that reply that we sent him, i did not hear from him for the entire day and then he only decided to reply him on mon 4plus late in the afternoon. For once, i just felt so terrible and disgusted and the first ever thought that came to my mind was, 'where is chuken? i need him now' it wasn't of any thoughts, but it was just 'no i don't want to talk to you anymore and then i am just beyond speechless already'. He spoiled my mood for pe lesson and rehearsal, i was so quiet and so down and i didn't interact much too. At that moment, i really wanted to just walk out of the school and go home straight, There were so many things on my mind but i couldn't really focus on them all because i couldn't bring myself up. I even somewhat just vented on my fellow group members which i felt bad now because they didn't know what happened and similarly, they didn't do anything wrong either. But, at that point of time, i couldn't stop myself either. I felt so mean now sigh. Sorry friends, you guys don't deserve any of that, i apologized for my immature actions that day. And when finally it was all over, i felt so drained, both mentally and physically. It was just at that moment, i didn't want to do anything else but to just sit down and stare blankly into space. It was one of those moments that i just want to shut everything away and be left all alone and maybe, get some sleep too and just cry all my heart out. It was so terrible. So so terrible. I felt so awful and depressed over it but i couldn't do anything about it too. Now that i think back, i really wanted to hug that day jieai so much now, she was going through so much all by herself and then there is that one dude that is just being really selfish with his words and actions. Even Muhila realised how bad jieai looked that day and she pulled her out to talk about it. I can't stop cursing and swearing because i cannot really processed what was on my mind and i just felt that this is all way too hard for me. Even Melissa came, everyone was saying that i should ignore him and whatnot, but idk why, ignoring was one thing but the most important thing i needed to do, i need to tell myself to get rid of him completely out of my mind because i couldn't do anything else. Honestly, even Nicholas was a better person omg. He saw how bad i looked because i can't hide anymore, and he even asked me 'are you okay' Honestly, i really didn't expect that. I was genuinely shocked and touched, like even he is such a better dude now. And i think he also moved on already yay. I went home, with the heaviest and most ridiculous heart and body and soul. I teared a bit on the way home but i couldn't show it all out because there is still people at home that i can't say anything about it. I was holding onto myself so so much, i even spoke super soft and really gentle because i cannot let anyone, especially the mum to sense anything different. I didn't know how i got through the night but there was this moment that i felt slightly light-hearted with all the comfort and distractions from my friends. But that night, the very same night, Rose decided to be an asshole and add on to the already distorted me. She rather believe and just take whatever she felt and thought, instead of hearing me out, hearing my explanations. she shut me away just like that and then she wanted to shove everything under the carpet. I was like, you are in the wrong and you decide how this convo end? No bitch, you come out and explain yourself omg. I was so pissed off that night that i really just lost all my cool and almost lashed it all out at her. Weiran was also raging at her because of some of her spiteful and harsh comments that turned out to be a joke (from Rose' POV). But unfortunately, you picked the wrong timing when, everything you said, to the smallest detail, jieai took note that day. I was so annoyed with her and i ended up talking to weiran all about it. We were just ranting and raging altogether and then finally, zhengwei issue came into the convo. I sent her the entire long text about the entire point and then her response just made felt so comforted all at once and she spoke the real truth and she broke the wall that i built and held onto since last week. 'stop loving people at the expense of yourself' and at that moment, instantly, whatever i held onto, came crashing all down at me. I broke down. I broke down and cried and cried. And then i realized, i was just being too harsh to myself, i didn't even allow myself to feel how i wanted to feel. 'who is he and why am i so affected by it' 'you need to learn to kick him out of your life now' 'the journey is going to be tough' 'but i believe that you can do it'
And then, i can't stop crying. It was just how much i was containing myself and i even refused to let them out. Even when everything happened, i continued to ill-treat myself so so much. I was so wrong. So so wrong. After that night, weiran woke me up. She was right. I need to learn to let go. I need to learn to ignore. Or else, it will be me, and only me that is hurt and affected. I ignored him the rest of the week, but he couldn't stop texting me which actually pissed me off even more, but i grey ticked all. I don't want to talk to you anymore, and i need to stop being affected by him. And now, I felt so much better. Though the notis is still there, but i know that i am feeling much much better now.
And now, everything is all out and every single detail is being written here, this will officially close this burdensome issue and that, i am going to move on from here and learn to take care of myself more now.
YES FINALLY MOVING ON OH YAYYYYYYY
TUES : Jacq came crashing to tpj to pass me my birthday present, HAHA. It was also near her house but it was so good to see her again and thankful for her existence and presence in my sec school days. Can;t wait for meetup after exams omg
And then stupid Rose finally realised her mistakes and then she was in the wrong the entire time and we finally cleared our misunderstandings.
I hate misunderstandings, and i hate it with all my life. No matter how much hatred or dislike i have against you, i will calm myself down and come back to you and we just need to get it solved and settled. (friends, take note okay)
WED : final rehearsal before the main performance. We really really improved so so much and i am proud to be in this team. We were so good and we just worked things out in less than 2 weeks, we faced a lot of trouble but we worked it all out. It wasn't smooth-sailing considering my group changed our beat three times but yes, it was all worth it. And this is the time, and i am just thankful i joined this big family yay (:
THURS : D-DAY Performance was smooth, backstage work was excellent and on point and i didn'y screw anything up, please give me a round of applause woohoo. And i went back to my temple. Going back was just one of the most correct decision i made. Not only i met all my old friends and teachers, i reunited with the old jieai and i couldn't be more than thankful. I was so embarrassing and being a legit hobo, a pig, a nuisance, a rowdy kid, a wild dog and idk, basically jieai. But, i was so comfortable, so relaxed and homed (: I went into the staffroom, roam around the room, steal food, grab leftovers, sat on the floor and started talking screaming really really loudly. Oh, i was jumping around too. HAHAHA. And when i told the teachers that i had an image in tpj, every single teacher that once taught me either started laughing or just gave the 'are you kidding me' stare omg HAHAH. It was so funny but then i didn't bother and just felt like it is okay guys, i improved too. HAHAH
And then, i went for lunch too with poop too. I spent most of my time laughing and talking crap but i felt so so happy and yeah, i cannot really decide how i feel but it was just peace at heart. :)
FRI : econs lesson + mini study session at airport
And i conclude this weekend that is full of many many many ups and downs. I went from rock bottom to cloud nine, a hell ride. I couldn't really remember how i got through all, but i am just so glad and thankful it is all over.
Promos are coming and this is the start of my sept holidays, Going to make full use of it and make sure the time spent is both productive and worthwhile.
Countdown : 16 more days
'With the will and determination, come the strength and power to conquer anything.' Yes, i can do this.
//
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