Right Here, Right Now

Officially left with few hours left, I think i am die from all the excitement that is building up in me but yes, after all the torturous and really really painstaking wait and counting down, everything is finally here. Everything is finally right here, in my face..
It is still so hard to believe it omg, like all the crying, all the anguish, all the ranting and spazzing, and omg, wait i feel like i going to start crying or giggling or start rolling on the damn bed hahahah.
I couldn't even sleep last night because i have all the excitements and crazy thoughts in me...
Packing is 95% done & i got more or less all my stuff down... Cold war is still going on, today day 2 already... And we are flying tmr morning alre.....
^ this is way to annoying urgh, quote from chuken, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER DAMN HUMANS
But anyway, moving on
Won't be blogging or up here for a week plus, considering i cannot update much too...
So i will just talk about these 3 days :)

Mon: meetup with weiran and collected my stuff plus final catchup with her before my flight. It was rather nice because i missed that bitch when she was in taiwan & it was really nice and fun to watch her embarrassing act and allow myself to enjoy her company and just be around together :)
Updated her about nalaaaaaan & also my life and i tried blackball for the first time in life. Yes, it is time for a return trip woohoo :) Little Einstein the whole time and she got really excited with the song and started singing non-stop hahah.
Goodbye weiran, see you in one week plus and look forward to your birthday present ;)
Update of nalaaaaan: he texted me again and he started telling me about his current location and his internship. He is currently at tekong?? i mean the photo show he was at a bed bunk, rather similar to what i have seen on ah boys to men and he also showed me his identity card so yeap, and the stuff that he mentioned me was about mindef and internship and scholarship stuff too... sigh, this is moving way towards zhengwei and my convo. Sigh, i can't really remb have i ever mentioned i geniuely hate anyone that talks to me regarding academics now sigh..... Like i am not saying it is a bad topic ofr convo considering our status now, but i think whenever someone talked to me about me and my studies and future i will be like errr... can we talk about something else instead omg... And obviously i can't say that to nalaaaaan yet duh.... I mean yes maybe he was just trying to find a convo to start or he is just considerate about me or whatever but sigh..... anything like anything elso omg.. so sick and tired about studies convo alre and i mean we can talk about every other thing lmao......

Tues: ordinary day and i was spent studying but as usual, didn't study much too but that is okay, going to continue more later (will do my best) and nothing much too...
But these few days, i was catching up on my drama and i am finishing catching up already so idk?? Is it a good job?? But i feel so good because i genuinely like reply 1988 and i think it is really a nice drama and i think it is better than reply 1994, but i will review again when the drama ended and compare it to reply 1997 :)
Update about nalaaaan: i couldn't take it any longer and i couldn't hold it anymore so i texted claudia and she directed me to zac, and zac shared with me the registration list and when he asked me why, i just said i needed to check something so yeap, i freaked out la wth. So when i opened the doc, i don't even need to look anywhere further nor i need to make the effort to search because his name was right smack on the second row, right smack on my face so yeah
I felt all my blood drained because i was circulating the whole time kaihon table, circulating that area which happens to be nalaaaaan table too.... nalaaaaaaannn and kaihon tables were just diagonally beside each other so yeap, when i was staring at one individual, another individual was probably looking at me the whole night smh.....

Wed: stayed home the whole day to do final cleanup and packing for the trip. Was running up and down the house the whole time and was also rather panicky because of family meeting too.. Mama grounded me somemore plus i know, she will desperately need me a lot so yeap, i didn't attend family meeting but i put chuken in charge and yeap, they are doing family cheer and banner design!! chuken told me everything is alright and he will help me write the proposal !! so yeap thanks so much my dear!!
Packing is done and yes, we are so so so close to be on the plane alre!!
Okay!! I want to continue my drama and my homework already :)
I cannot believe it, yes i cannot.
I AM FINALLY THIS CLOSE TO MY DREAM ALREADY
LIKE FINALLY
Will be back on the 18dec, so wait for me by then!
#AiloveAustralia

'dreams do come true, just have faith'


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Fun, fun, fun & Urgh...

Good morning. Last week was a drama week, so many ups and downs omg.. Everything started out alright, and i reached my peak and all great things come to an end, all the disasters will come by too...

Mon: nothing special & i think i was just at home the whole day doing work and being excited over prom :)

Tues: more econs homework for the day & counting down to prom oh yay :-))

Wed: D-DAY PROM (read everything below for that unbelievable magical night) & i posted a candid photo of me during prom and that photo hit a new record for my highest likes... currently standing 202 likes now,, how even... (day 1 of alan texting me)

Thurs: because delphine tan cancelled her lesson the previous day, we only had one lesson & i was so thankful but i have no idea what was i thinking when i decided to wake up & attend lessons. Legs were still sore and i couldn't sleep becasue i was rolling on my bed, giggling and laughing non-stop. 

(day 2 of alan texting me)

Fri: early in the morning, diana threw a bomb in my face by telling me that my family colour is red and the name is zest. I just woke up and immediately when i saw that message, i rubbed my eyes so many times just to ensure i was looking at the right thing. Purple was given to family 5 and i was this close to fainting. I called chuken immediately and we got into the persuasion plan so efficiently and so effectively. We planned what we wanted to say and wrote a super long reasoning paragraph & urgh, that woman bluetick and i called her afterwards. Amidst of my panic mood and super frantic self, alan finally gave up and he commented on my ig photo and asked me to check insta direct lmao hahah. And when i finally saw, i then realised that he texted me for two days and i just didn't see it. We talked a bit and some of the stuff he said scare me so much that i threw my phone. Everytime, i prepared my heart for something unbelievable again, he will raised the bar again somewhere higher and allow me to fall even higher.... So while talking to him, i skyped chuken and PATIENTLY awaits diana replies. And when i called her, we finally explained the situation to her and OH MY GOD YES YES YES WE DID IT 

She approved of my family getting purple & 75% confirmed of Prometheus!!! I texted her again the next day to confirm for Prometheus and yes, she said okay; i immediately texted the family group and got everyone so excited about it woohoo !!!

And now, i present you FAMILY 2:

PROMETHEUS

!!!!

^ we lied a little for purple but that's okay because she didn't bother reading the rationale, what even urgh.

Sat: family day out and searching for essentials for aussie continues & evening, met up with Ming for dinner as she talked all about her great day6 concert. IT was a good meetup over food and yes i told her about alan too lmao. I showed her the convo and all her comments about alan were so relevant and funny and i couldn't stop laughing... guys, she said that in terms of first impression, alan > kaihon.. and urgh, in terms of height, alan > kaihon but i met kaihon first omg.. 

but omg, why did alan even see in me, i want to question that even more....

chuken called this the 'love triangle at first sight'........

^ such great friend i have here right :-)

Alan texted me again and this time, more questions came in and how can he even be so efficient with his replies omg.. i couldn't even finish answering him the front, and he started excitedly replying me again oh dear lord. And sigh, alan sounded really polite and courteous in the texts, to the point that i feel bad if i chose not to reply omg ): and yes friends, anyone could sense that he wanted to keep and sustain this convo from going on and he is so afraid that he might just say something wrong and everything come to a complete crash and stop. He was being really really careful with his words and chuken say he is testing the water to find the line that he can't cross.. quite true enough and yes, he said some things and when he think it's too much or inappropriate, he will step back and apologised. chuken said that there is genuinity and so we are keeping the convo continuing!! But, alan need to know that the convo won't happen unless he decide to ask me questions becasue i won't suddenly ask him anything or just start the convo like that oops...

Ming was so adorable btw!! It was a good catch up & when the both of us looked at each other when we were slurping the udon, we just laughed at each other and yes, it was at that moment that i know i truly enjoy her company a lot a lot :) 

I passed her the present too, what a last minute present omg... We went to milk & honey afterwards and other than the overflow of honey, everything was nice and sweet about it and it was good closure to the night :)

Sun: another family day out but this time, before we even have the chance to step out of the car, mama broke down from quarreling with papa and we spent a good whole 45mins-1hour in the car just waiting for mama to calm down. We didn't do much and we only ate some food because i dragged them all to the food hall and after eating, we all went home.. It was a super bad day and i was annoyed and vexed over it & nothing worked out though omg... I think mama came home for round 2 but idk because she refused to show it to us sigh... 

All in all, it was just plain urgh urgh urgh.... And most importantly, we are flying to aussie soon omg.. How are we able to enjoy the holiday like that omg....

Coutdown: 3 more days, 3 MORE DAYS and we still have such drama at home, idk man idk anything anymore 

'Cannot wait for everything to be over and i can finally see the rainbow again after all that downpour'

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Alan Ang

Hi Friends, so this is the one that i was talking about the whole time. Actually, he has already insta direct me that night but it was just me having a really lousy phone so i can't see shit that's all. But oh well, phone want to be nice to me teehee. Updated yesterday and miraculously work woah.
So i didn't reply him & he texted me again one day after prom. And when there is still no replies, he decided to comment on my photo instead HAHAHAH. When i finally realised what is going on, we started talking a bit and his way of talking to a girl is so burden chan level omg. But that's okay, because he proven himself to be now a level much lower than burden chan. Because once you hit burdne chan level, you won't be able to talk to me anymore becasue you are blocked out from my life hahahah
For eg of a burden chan level: 'my taste ain't that bad'
For eg of a good level: 'your turn to take As now & concentrate on your studies'
And omg friends, i am such a noob and is just plain dense and dumb omg. I mean he actually started noticing me since sports day, which is like May period...until now & a good 7 months already oh dear god. He even said we made eye contacts and i'm like huh, prom night was the very first time i see you??? I feel so bad though but i have been doing his job since orientation days so yes, i understand how you feel the most and the best oops.
So far, adding up all the parts that he has been looking at me for some time & he mustered up his courage to ask from a photo with me & he seemed nice and he looked fine, i think he is alright so far. I won't strike him out instantly nor directly. He seemed friendly and courteous and respectful enough (at this stage) so i guess if he talks, yes i will reply :)
^ but maybe phone number can wait, when i am more comfortable with everything first
Bonus: i think he is quite cute and good-looking teehee :3
Anyway, our convo ended and i pray that for this period of time that won't be any major things to trip me up and i will have a good dec and the rest of the months too.
Thanks for calling me attractive and thanks for making me feel good about myself
teehee.

From my favourite movie, our times:
也许当时
忙着微笑和哭泣 忙着追逐天空中的流星
人理所当然的忘记
是谁风里 雨里 一直默默守护在原地


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Magical Night ; A Night to Remember

It was one amazing & magical night. I thought i might not survive through that night & i might die halfway but that is okay because i was able to see delphine annoying face & have the second fm. Legs are still soreing and still not back from everything that happened but oh well, you can't except me to come back so quickly yet, i mean i waited for one entire year for that one special day, one special moment. And i worked hard for that day so i guess i deserve my reward?? teehee :3

#2015themostperfectyear :)

Prom 2016 was a great success to me, okay to me it was more than a success because not only my drema come true & i made someone happy last night too, or i also made someone's dream come true teehee :)

^ feel so vain & arrogant to say this omg hahah

Sidetrack: when delphine cancelled her lesson, i spent a good 5mins rolling on my bed cheering because I get enough sleep for prom later on :) & i don't have to wake up early anymore nor rush up and down woohoo

Afternoon, got ready & mama wanted to go to suntec so i went along. Then, walked all the way to city hall mrt to meet up with chuken. Then, traveled together to orchard mrt. The reason why we met up so early was it was rongxuan birthday the next day (today) & i had to buy her balloon because jeevan doesn't want to do it -_-

So we got the balloon & i transferrred my money that i owed, and we left with a bit of time to loiter around omg. We went from ion to wisma to taka, back to wisma & ion again and finally met up with p&d and jeevan lmao

All of us then decided to went all the way to ion sky & holy god, i didn't really know that place exist and it was all the way up at 56th floor?? The place was so atas and the scene was so breathtaking. The view looking down is really pretty but i though ti t was too much for someone with a lot of height issues, yes that's right me :)

Finally, we decided to make our way there and good job to the weather because it decided to rain & urgh, Hilton was some walking distance away?? Stupid rain & stupid walking made my feet so wet and uncomfortable but that is okay, because WE FINALLY REACHED THAT PLACE

Briefing commenced & i was this close to falling asleep because all the sleepy bugs got on me and i was on the hotel so i was just like 'can i lie down this moment now'

Dinner & we complained that was no drinks so i had to drag kimchi with me but turned out zhonghng already went to get it so woohoo

Finally, event opened and it is the official start where we have to get the photobooth & stage set up, know your places, prepare mentally and physically & woohoo, PROM STARTS NOW

Seniors came rushing but me and joachim were in charge of the lobby but nope, we wen to the other side of the lobby and got ourselves the armchairs instead :-) we spent a good 15-20mins talking and my poor leg was starting to sore omg T.T

Finally, we got our shit together and decdie to welcome some seniors but i was called by shuihan to go up for my stage duty. So i went up and hosanna was guiding me the roles and such. mdm goh called me to the side and join by mr teo and sean, we were back to farewell omg.. You just can't get away with farewell omg.... sigh pie but that is okay, i love farewell enough to embrace all the shit by them yes :)

^ actually, the first thing i did when i came up was go to the reception counter and ask if he is here hahaha. And yes, YES YES YES chuken said yes to me and i just felt that everything is worth it already omg. I walked a few times around the outside of the lobby and yes, i saw him. I spotted him  :) omg, he was wearing this box tie that is so cute and though his suit is a bit big, but that is okay because he looks handsome and dashing and good enough for me awwww.....

^ my prom king guys 

HAHAHAHA

Moving on, prom finally commence and seniors start streaming in & programme also started. As expected, i know his group of friends and nope, it was all expected that he will sit with that group of his friends instead of his class hahah. And because i am doing stage duty, i was standing at the side of the stage and his table was diagonal to the stage and yes in other words, i have the best angle of the night friends :) it was such a perfect angle that yes you can stand there for the rest of the night omg but no i was running up and down because of my duty and i was also going in and out of the ballroom too because my legs are really sore and i can't confirm standing for too long oh well. 

And when i was so excited outside, i told chuken to help me be on guard and when he is outside/going to the toilet or whatever, just let me know and i will come dashing out of the ballroom to meet him omg.

Guys, HE CAME OUT AT THE WRONG TIME OMG 

5mins before my duty, chuken called at the wrong time omg.... I was going to be up on stage and chuken called me and said, 'this is your cue now' and i was just like wait what?? NOW??? NO I CANNOT 

But i guess last night, it was kaihon > everything and anything.

I called claudia with me so i was outside walking up and down the whole time, heart beating so so fast ever since promos & pw and my face was so red urgh and i was just repeating 'i can do this, i can do this' the whole time omg. AND YES THE MOMENT OF TRUTH 

HE IS OUT

I thought i was going to die but yes, i told myself it was now or never. The chance doesn't come by anymore. So yes, i followed what weiran taught me and yes, i did it friends. I went up to him and asked for a photo, he was rather reluctant and sounded awkward but he was nice to say okay. And yes, chuken and claudia were snapping the photos away. zhonghng suddenly appear out of nowhere and started snapping at the side & he took such a nice photo omg, SCREAM HAPPINESS THIS RIGHT MOMENT NOW

When it was all over, i said thank you and wished him a good night and yes, i dragged claudia and walked super fast away because my face was burning so so much and it was so so red and it was just so so hot omg. But, guys it was really too much for the heart and i thought i was going to die omg friends. But most importantly, i did something that i wanted since the start of the year, or to be exact since day 2 of orientation, please go and count how long is that already friends. Everything was so unbelievable and everything happened just so quickly and my brain wasn't really working or cooperating with me and i was just still in the state of shock and disbelief. This is probably how fans feel when their oppas are close and near to them oh well sigh... 

What a crazy yet thrilling and sweet sweet night...

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And then after that, everything just put a smile on the face the whole night and everything just look super pretty to me teehee :) 

I was on stage smiling, walking and jumping around, and just went really really crazy the whole time woohoo.

:D

Prom duty continued on and i went up and down doing my work and shit but i had a lot of fun too teehee :3

And then finally, it was the end of prom already :) 

We had lucky draw, performances, prom king and queen nominee and finally the announcement of king and queen.

Prom king & queen are weiyew and pearlyn, which is yes, my preferred combi that night because she was really pretty and he was really handsome. 

And then, it was finally the end, councillors were stuffing themselves with the food after the event omg, but it was quite a nice sight seeing all of us just crowed together and busying feeding one another with the food and it was just a sweet scene seeing how comfortable we are with one another teehee :)

And yes, another highlight of the night, something that made the night extra magical teehee :3

When i was busying stuffing myself with the food, someone, a senior, male senior, someone that i have never seen before in my entire life came forward and tapped on me, 'jieai can i take a photo with you' 

Friends, my mouth was full & i was more than unprepared and i took the photo omg urgh wth what the heck. But, i was so lost so i am just like oh okay and i just took the photo with him lmao. He sounded nervous and uncertain as well too. 

But later, i felt bad because i feel that i probably looked really bad in that photo so i came back and requested if we want to retake the photo or not :-)

Everyone was going crazy over that and melissa and claudia were saying how he was trying to approach me the whole night, and i was like wait what, so someone was like a me the whole night towards kaihon woohoo ^0^

We took a second round of photo together & this time, he put his hand around me so i did the same thing oops. 

^ okay, this sound rather stupid and super retarded and basically immature and nope i didn't say this to anyone becasue i feel genuinely embarrassed, but when he put his hand around me, i was like wait what, so he is rather more confident now HAHAH 

but okay, this time the second round i think the photos are better becasue it definitely looks less awkward now teehee. Okay, it was all honestly i felt that i understand his situation more than anyone and hello, that requires how much efforts from the person asking the photo so i want to at least leave him a really nice memory :)

We might not cross path anymore but that's okay because in his jc prom, he did muster up his courage and did something that he know if he didn't do it, he probably will regret much later on :)

^ clap for him okay friends, and yes clap for me too teehee
Oh, and i did it, please give a round of applause of my stalking skills please. i found him hahah. Alan Ang from 14S13 

:3

And the whole time, council was just going crazy over it la wth but that is okay, i love them enough to look by all these oh wells :-)

And yes, sang birthday song for rongxuan and telepathic trio took photos too, and yes our very last photo with mr choon before he is gone and away from welfare T/T

yay for telepathic trio woohoo 

farewell my beloved mr choon 

It was one magical and more than amazing night. All of you were all stars to me & all of you shine really brightly together as one. I am so proud of you all councillors & i am so thankful for all the j2s that came & i was thankful for that one senior that made me pretty that night & most importantly, i am so so so proud of you, my dear jieai for everything you did.

Not only you picked up the courage and achieve something that you have always wanted but you shinned so brightly just as well :)

Thank you all, for that wonderful night. I will never ever ever forget :)

zhonghng's masterpiece

'Stars, they use all their strength to shine brightly together. That's why, no one is left behind and given a chance to be themselves'

A Night To Remember 

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Weekends Fun & Hello Dec :)

This is a random post but i just want to talk about my unbelievable weekends.
Okay, it wasn't nothing much but it was probably one of the weekends that i had really much fun & spent really a lot of time together with my family :)

Sidetrack: nicholas birthday was last sat and when i wished him happy birthday, but that stupid idiot first sentence was 'bet you forgotten' & i was like omg, rude kid but oh well, it was nothing much because it was just a simple happy birthday well wishes so nothing much :) it was a good and very simple birthday wish.
I spent a good whole two days shopping and went to a few malls because everyone except me are still lacking for clothes and stuffs for our aussie trip.
Sat, went out to vivo because papa still haven't found his shoes. We could't find any so we called it a day and we decided to go for round 2 of shopping in the night. I rushed off to restrung but i met up early with hidayah and we spent some time loitering at tamp mall. Then, we went to school for the concert but we reached early & so we went to look around a bit. Weiran came and i spent most of the concert time talking and laughing with her lmao. We didn't watch much but it was alright, i had a good bonding time with her :') because i haven't been seeing her a lot so yes :)
And omg, sufenia came to watch restrung too & she didn't tell me because she completely forgotten that i was from tpjc oh lord. But, it was okay because we took a photo during the concert halfway because i was rushing and mama was calling me smh sigh... And i took photos with weiran and zhonghng
**zhonghng asked for a photo guys!! he initiated the photo!! ^00^ and we took it omg, and yes he did a dedication for me too omg !!
And i genuinely spent more time walking in and out, talking to people than watching the performance.
BUTTTTT, i saw jessa and jayce & yes, they are BEYOND AMAZING OMGGGGGG
like jayce harmonising was so so peaceful and jessa is just a singing machine herself and when she lead the christmas medley and when she did her high note, it was just ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
It was so good and yes, they are just great and amazingly great :)
And then, i rushed to suntec to meet mama and papa and we had dinner at 8plus because we spent a good period of time at esprit buying clothes for mama and bro & yes, mama called me especially because i told her that i am looking for shorts and i really need a few now omg. And then we had dumplings and noodles because me was craving for it so much omg.
^ btw friends, i cabbed to suntec from tpjc and it was a good 20 bucks omg....... & yes, i was carrying 3 pairs of shoes because, hidayah brought her shoes for me for prom, cheryl returned me my court shoes and i was wearing one. i was also changing my shoes during the concert & i was texting people, and basically not watching the concert
Oh, and they sang you raised me up which has become a very special song and a song that has a special meaning and keep in a special place already :) it was a very heartwarming song and it was also very well presented so yeap :')

AND YES HIGHLIGHT FRIENDS, my face was on tpjc net and i genuinely questioned why. And i still have beloved friends, eg weiran and chuken. And so i clicked their face 10 times each and yes, i send them up on the tpjc net. And when that happened, exco went viral and went clicking on everyone's face and by the time, other than me and shuihan, all 8 excos made it up on tpjc net. I have no idea why they were doing and this whole thing actually started because of me oops. But hey they have to thank me, they had fun and they are popular now :)
I am going to take credit for that ^
SAY THANK YOU EXCOS
HAHAHA
And okay friends, i am going to admit and acknowledge that yes, i am popular in school. i was just outside talking to weiran and zhonghng, when izza just came up to me and ask me for help to take a photo when it was the very first sentence we ever had. oh well, people do know and recognise me in school and this is rather scary becasue i genuinely believe i didn't do anything oh well, my face appeared every morning during assembly, which i believe is more than enough already.
^ very vain but yes, lets admit about it

Moving on friends,
Sun: round 3 of shopping and we went to the city hall area, from raffles place, to capitol plazza, and pennisular plaza and shopping center & papa brought his shoes and clothes so he was very very relieved already. Mama also brought her dream and childhood shoes, dr martens, something that she wanted since young, and it was her dream and when she was able to finally have her dreams, she was genuinely happy, like so so happy :)
We spent a lot of time together as one family and we almost bought the yellow boots, the classic and iconic pair of timberland but urgh, they say it is not practical so no :(
But it was really a very good day together and i loved how we just hang out and enjoy each other company so so much :)
It was just a very heartwarming day because not only we wanted to get, what i think most important was it has honestly been a while we spent the entire day together, without any worries.
And spending more time like this kind of reminds me of my childhood, when life wasn't as busy and much easier, i still remembered how when i was young, we will go out the entire day too, during the weekends and just spent so much time together. we will eat, walk around, eat, talk and goes on and on about the things we want and we like. Mama will go against my kind of clothes, papa will be tired of walking the whole day, nodding and shaking his head to show his approval and disapproval, and bro just sit down or walk around and be in his own world the whole time (:
Back then, life wasn't so good because we are not as financial stable as now, but i genuinely treasure the times when we are able to go out together and shop and walk around the entire day.
I am thankful for aussie, because we are brought together once again
:)
Counting down to aussie: exactly 10 more days left & i really can't wait anymore. i am finally able to enjoy something that i have been looking forward to since the start of the year :)
It is really here, and really close.

'Anticipation, that is what keeps me excited about tomorrow'

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