it hurts so much
& I really wanna cry.
You have been nothing but amazing & I never feel that I am deserving for everything you have done or said to me. It's a vicious cycle of enjoying and loving everything and being just so happy at that point of time but then the aftermath, it's unbearable it's painful it's too depressing for my own good.
But, I can't run away and I can't escape.
For the first time, I felt that I was a girl and someone is really treasuring me so much.
For the first time, someone actually take note of everything and anything I said and do, and you never question why.
For the first time, someone listen out to me, rain or shine, good or bad, happy or sad.
For the first time, someone genuinely appreciate me, compliment me & tell me that, yes I'm able to do it and yes I'm able to become someone better.
Why are you always the one that knows what and when and where to say and do?
Why are you always the one that sees me at my lowest point in life?
Why are you always the one that that reciporate me and my actions and words?
I never really broke down once, except for farewell graduation day. But at the point of losing myself and just wanna cry my heart out, I lost count of them.
It's so painful liking someone that doesn't like you back and it's so annoying because feelings ain't helping and they choose to always do the otherwise.
But that aside, I never regret. I never walk back the old path. Given the same choice once more, yes I will pick you all over again and yes I will go through everything once more. Without any hesitation.
Because you showed me that really, I'm someone that is deserve to be loved.
I like you, i really do.
And no matter what happens, I'm thankful for you & you are nothing but a blessing 💙
